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the first time I felt it I got so scared

I would of confronted it had I dared

I put a blanket over my head, trying to dissapear

I felt such an intense sort of horrible fear

I yelled and screamed random words for no reason at all

that night I never slept I just banged my head against a wall

all night I just kept hurting myself cause I didn't know what else to do

I had never felt this before and I didn't understand it, it was brand new



every emotion deep inside is swirled around like a tornado

thrown randomly to the ground mixing up together like playdo

contradicting emotions I feel at the same time, I don't know how to be

I get so frustrated cause as I watch myself act I know that this isn't me

I yell and scream as loud as I can, I punch the floor and cry out

and no one around me sees this and knows what it is really about

emotions just keep coming and coming and mix up and they are on overload

and I don't know how to handle this because I am about to go crazy and explode



with every scream, with every cry, with every punch I hurt like hell

but no one really sees, they don't know, they really can't seem to tell

I try to tell them all I am feeling but all that comes out are the random words I scream

this is very real it's what it looks like pretty much though  fake is what it may seem

I want to be held and comforted but instead I tell you to leave me alone

it's so frustrating to me cause I feel like I am completely on my own

I want help yet I push it away, I feel one thing but I feel the oppisite too

this is what it is and what it feels like when I am in the "no" mood