Ashes and Dust

Tears roll from an angry face,

Looking around; I hate this place.

My mind racing and pacing inside,

Releasing feelings I was unable to hide.

I hurt and I hate at the same time,

Causing chaos in this world of mine.

I never thought I could feel this way,

I try to speak out with nothing to say.

Loneliness burns like an open flame,

My plastic heart melted when you said his name.

My house of wax melted beneath my feet,

Sending me once again; out into the street.

I was trapped; spinning out of control,

Because you stole my heart and soul.

I paced holding my headphones tight,

Trying to do what I thought was right.

Hearing the words of Papercut and Outside,

Reminds me of the hurt I hold inside.

I may never again feel what I did for you,

Even if you were to feel the same way too.

I rode so fast not even stopping to breathe,

I cried so hard; I didn’t want you to leave.

I needed you more than you will ever know,

It was so hard to have to let you go.

The thought of being alone was far too scary,

My heart grew too heavy for me to carry.

The big bad wolf blew down my house of sticks,

My protective wall crumbled into a pile of bricks.

I was an emotional wreck; a horrible crash,

My life took a dive; and I took a splash.

Off the deep end; unable to swim,

As I’m drowning it finally sinks in.

Our relationship was cut tragically short of forever,

Even though you said we would always be together.

I know I slipped; I made a mistake,

I left my heart open for you to break.

Still to this day I live with regret,

I may have forgiven; but I will never forget.

Printed like a picture into my memory,

I can never forget what you did to me.

You taught me the meaning of broken trust,

Turning hearts to ashes and love to dust.

You taught me about bad memories; betrayal; and pain,

Burning me inside every time I think of your name.

You were so good I couldn’t believe my eyes,

So clever I couldn’t see through your disguise.

So many times I told myself that you would care,

All those times; you were never there.

You were gone and there was nothing I could do,

I tried so hard to erase those memories of you.

You haunted me by night; tormented me by day,

I couldn’t stop; you wouldn’t go away.

I didn’t know where all the pain was coming from,

But the tears continued to come.

I would cry myself to sleep at night,

All my friends told me it wasn’t right.

What did they know; they couldn’t see,

How did they know what was best for me?

I needed you; nothing else mattered,

You were gone; my heart was shattered.

Today the emptiness is not so bad,

But the memories still make me sad,

Because of all that we could have had,

I still miss you so bad.

Please don’t ever forget me…

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