Goodbye Past .... Hello Future

Goodbye ,This time I speak the truth ,
I am saying goodbye to my future life,
and the way I lived in past youth .

I can no longer go on seeking help,
it seems like a useless way .
Can go no longer I am weak,
not getting stronger .
Just remember I do love you ,
I have failed you and I have failed me
The darkness is all I want to see ..

I am scared to go on ,
Chickenshit is what they say ,
I have chosen my way .
My way out do not shed a tear
do not go on and pout.

I no longer wish to hurt you
and soon this will be through .
No more disappointment ,
no more self tourment .
I will be free and total darkness
is all I will see.
I am far gone to be saved
this is my road
already paved .

Unsure how I got to this point,
wait maybe lighting that first joint .
Then a pill maybe two,
along with taking acid too .
I am sorry I let it grab hold
I am weak it is what I am told

No longer will will I hurt any of you
for my life is done and through ....
Remember I do Love all of you ..
GOODBYE.......

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thisisme789's picture

When did you write this one?

When did you write this one? And, you weren't truely thinking of ending, were you?


<3

Adam아담's picture

Is this how you feel?

Is this how you feel?


Cheers,
Adam_San

facethetruth2b's picture

At this point yes this is how

At this point yes this is how I feel , what I write is what I truly feel...


you laugh at me because I am differant, I laugh at you because You are all the same ...(KoRn) J.D......

SSmoothie's picture

my beautiful FTT2b~!!!!

Tell me what prayers to say and I will say them
tell me what what words to say to make you see
tell me what time you will need to make yourself well?
What fight is it that I can douse pain with loving balm?
Tell me how your slipping and what can I do to grab your arm?
I would travel the ends of the earth if it will make you see
how special and important you are to me.
I refuse to believe these demons have a strong hold
and I belive that you can tell yourself one slight increment at a time
that your too amazing not to hang around. I would and I'm sure we would all
take a thousand of your disapointments to have you around.
I let my family down everyday and I know its impossible to keep it
all good all the way. so when you need a break take one not one
person knows how hard you fight to make it all right. rest dear one
lay your weary head and build your resolve I am here to watch and
be there to see your beautiful angelic butterfly wings unfold. Forgive
your self first and come back to the fold where we love you and youre
worth your weight in gold. God gives all what they need to grow not
what they want and watch them fold. I cant wait to see a better stronger
you in the next chapter of all you do. Love hugss and prayers SS.


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

Adam아담's picture

Thanks!

Thanks SSmoothie! I really like this. Sorry FTT2B, I was away taking an exam... wasn't trying to ignore you.


Cheers,
Adam_San

facethetruth2b's picture

not a problem Adam , I have

not a problem Adam , I have two lil ones that take me away from here also .>Understood completey hope you aced them ..


you laugh at me because I am differant, I laugh at you because You are all the same ...(KoRn) J.D......

facethetruth2b's picture

Thank you SSmoothie Luvs and

Thank you SSmoothie Luvs and Hugs ..


you laugh at me because I am differant, I laugh at you because You are all the same ...(KoRn) J.D......