No Child Of Mine

no child of mine will listen to this music
no child of mine will 'not care'
no child of mine will love the darkness
always feeling empty there
no child of mine will have this attitude
no child of mine will be this cruel
no child of mine will be this rude
when i open up this is my response...i cannot talk to anybody
but i used to have somebody.....
well Mother, no mother of mine will drink until she's passed out
no mother of mine will take my possessions to punish me for being who i am
no mother of mine will lie to me and expect the truth
no mother of mine will tell my secrets to the world
no mother of mine will push me away to deal with more 'important' things
no mother of mine will kill me with cigarettes
no mother of mine will ruin days
now tell me again who my mother is
'no other person will love you more than your mother'
but others have treated me better
'i can only give you what i can afford'
love has no physical cost of coins and paper
'you have to love and care'
i cannot give what i do not receive
'your going to end up in hell'
so be it
its where i am now
'a child that is not a child of God is no child of mine'
that hurt the most
I'm a straight A student, i don't do anything wrong
and that is not good enough for you
i love you more than anything in the world
but Mother, you are the cause of my depression
you cannot accept who i am as a person
you cannot let me be
you cause me sadness and bloody blades in my hands
put your rum away for me
cure yourself of nicotine
stop trying to change who i and taking the few possessions i cherish to punish me for not listening
when there is no way i can listen
i cannot change myself
everything i am
just to please you
id be living a lie if i were to do that
but this whole piece, i cannot tell you any of it
because you wont listen, and accept who i am
stop causing me pain, and listen to me
but no matter what i say you interpret in a different way
and i cannot open up to the person who loves me the most
i cannot wait for my coffin to close

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