THE CHANGE IN MY LIFE

Beating sadness was not easy

My eyes always stayed weary

From the problems that gripped me

For most of the past days and nights.

And like Ahmad Faraz, the Pakistani poet

I too used to talk to myself thus:

Why take refuge in sleep

When death awaits us with open arms?

Then my guardian angel intervened for me

With the Lord of all worlds

And I bade goodbye to the saqis

Of the taverns I used to go

And while away the sleepless hours

And finally I did succeed

And found refuge in the divine Saqi:

God Almighty -- who always loves me

Unconditionally and wants nothing

In return at His blessed Tavern

Which is invisible to those

Who wander and seek not the very best

Of that which soothes the soul --

The basic ingredient of everything called living.

I am not abnormal at all

Because, when Orion and Gemini, rise in October

And Cassiopeia keeps smiling at me

I am drawn to tears while fighting the sadness

Which seeks to wreck havoc on me

And all that which belongs to me and mine.

Then my divine Saqi, God Almighty

Draws me nearer and nearer to His Tavern

And I find soothing relaxation

Which heals me completely and refreshes me

Till I find myself closing my eyes naturally

And without any effort on my part.

I drink the best drink -- of thankfulness and gratitude

At the invisible Tavern

Along with the constellations

Of calm and breezy early dawn.

I am moving away further and further

With each passing day

Into the company of those who are happy

At the invisible Tavern of the Almighty Saqi.

I care no more for what this world has to offer

Nor do I pine for what I cannot have

For the most gracious Almighty Saqi

Has shown me and welcomed me

To His everlasting Tavern

Of total peace and healing love.

O that others who are still astray

And lurking in man-made bars

Late at night to cope with anxiety

And depression and self-caused pity

Can find the way to the invisible High Tavern

Of the Sublime Saqi, God Almighty....

Author's Notes/Comments: 

INSPIRED, COMPOSED AND POSTED ON OCTOBER 31, 2010.

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heatherburns35's picture

the change in my life

great poem...the change in your life is a nice one...this worlld really doesn't have much to offer. I agree....

as you already know, you remain one of my favorite poets...blessings....heather

sanctus's picture

Nice heart felt poem!

Nice heart felt poem!