I think something's missing, I think something's wrong.
I'm tired of just playing Along. I'm tired of the mind games,
That I force myself to play, I'm tired of convincing myself to stay.
I'm tired of being hurt and miss used, I'm tired, so tired of the abuse.
I'm tired of listening to your excuse, I'm tired of never being good enough for you.
Even when I do everything, for you, I'm still not good enough for you!!!
Iv given up the hours of every day, iv said goodbye to sleep, iv given up on things to make you happy.
Iv sat by your side through everything, iv taken care of you, and yet I'm still not good enough.
I get tired, I get angery, you never make time, you never try to be a better guy.
You say you want to hear how I feel, so I tell you, then you cry and make me hate that I told you.
I'm so tired of this, I'm tired of the games, I'm tired of the anger that sucomes me everyday,
I'm tired of the broken promises, I'm tired of the secrets,I'm tired of you, I don't think I can take it!
I'm so tired and I think something's missing.
Author's Notes/Comments:
I wrote this just now, but I'm not quite sure as to whom.
It could be to my father, for doing all that he does to me, and have done over the years,
Or it could be to my boyfriend, who's been a royal jerk here lately and iv Been seeing a lot of things I didn't see before. Maybe they were there all along, maybe I was blind to see them before. Maybe iv delt with it for way to long. I don't know. But I do no is, I'm tired of it all. And I'm coming to relize this isn't what I need. I always had feelings for him, they haven't stopped, I still care for him, but I don't think I loved him. I don't know what to do, but I can't stand by and be abused like this. Iv let myself get Hirt by other men, and I can't do that shit again. Why does god make me a bad guy magnet? Seems like most of the time, I attract the wrong kind. But not always. And my hearts been beating for another man, and my minds, been thinking of him. He treats me better then any other has, and I want to be his. I'm going to ride this train, for a lil while longer, see what happens, but after that I'll make my desion. And I think iv already made up my mind. I think I want to board another train, I think it's time to switch directions, go somewhere new, see where it takes me. Im in love, with someone new. And my hearts being pulled to him, and my heart is what I follow, and it's leading. Me to him. Ill hopefully see him soon.
=( Awws, I'm sorry
Hon! I wish I could be there for you and help out. And, Also >;} Who is this about?
"But not always. And my hearts been beating for another man, and my minds, been thinking of him. He treats me better then any other has, and I want to be his.
Im in love, with someone new. And my hearts being pulled to him, and my heart is what I follow, and it's leading. Me to him. Ill hopefully see him soon."
What's his name? *staring at the screen wit a 'telllll meeee!' look*
<3
Me too. PM me and we will
Me too. PM me and we will discuss this. I want to fill you in, iv felt like iv been keeping this to myself, and i dont want you to think im hiding something from you my love. Cause i know some of my comments have been sounding strange and a bit confusing as of late. Dont worry this isnt anything bad lol. Its about a guy on here. LIke i said PM me and we will discuss. :) But iv falling head over heels in love. <3 <3 <3 its like a dream, magic and i want it to be come a reality. :D
-Elfy*
Okay, I will ;P
Okay, I will ;P
<3