Rejection Incarnate

Folder: 
2021

Asleep at the apex

a dormant mind is gonna bring all the anxieties of mine

to the fore

and as a result

the reality now is a rickety, splintered

fence of pine,

rotten apple cores,

and Tinder

to gaze with glazed eyes and earnest malaise

 

So I change clothes

and go

speak to the voices I haven't heard in proper time

a bank where the paper was alive

within roots
and the ink on the floor

hadn't stained any surface, or even seen

a pair of weary steel-toed boots

and the thrill was silky, pure

 

Safe and sealed, I celebrate my youth

drinking potent liquor

from the well of memories with both hands cupped in vigor

awash in stories of toasted truth

and jovial times

and meaningful moments I thrived

with courage anew

 

Soft, sublime melodies together in the majestic air
I remember falling in love, then and there
crooning synchronized lyrics into attentive portals

not intending to stare

but

 

I'm fooling no one

I'm lighter than air

on a cranial plateau with no suspicions,

no fears,

and doubts left to linger

the stirred nerves enveloped here

by love like a sticky bun hugging at 350 degrees

with peerless satisfaction and prolific, warm serenity

 

until I wake up.

 

and the record slides off the shelf
and volumes of mental wealth
are levelled

 

This is literally in your dreams!!

 

..of honey-sweet cyanide for the sane mind

Instantly grounded and exploding
through my own
reasoning

foreboding
Reality
bites

back!!
how?
no!
I...

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Completely revamped this Nov. 2021, gonna put it in that folder

 

Gotta have dreams in your life, have to keep your mind sharp and creative otherwise you can lose hope and your voice will follow - dreaming can keep you going when reality smacks you around a bit..but the fact of the matter is that your plans may not work out the way that you once drew them up in the past.. but our scars are what define us as human beings and make us lovable, unique, and they show us that we have learned.

To come to terms with our mishaps and our greatest moments of fear is a direct catalyst to finding the fire to be constantly progressing again, we should adapt at the foot of a clay wall by manufacturing an iron will to barrel through; we cannot just avoid the wall, or turn a blind eye to the wall..... because when others rely on you so dearly, and they need you to rely on and exist at your pinnacle...confronting reality and releasing anguish is often the most effective way to rid your soul of toxins - only when you reach that point of self-acceptance can you begin to see the world in selfless eyes, where you can find true emotion, and I'll tell you what, the sky's the limit from there, for real :)

Always value the power of your words, actions

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Author's Notes, Poet's Notes

The notes were prose poetry, streaming from the mind direct to the mind of the listener...very fine wisdom (what I always look for) dreams and plans that don't become what you think, life pulling you, not halting you...all encompased in the poem...the dream literally! - allets


 

 

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thank you allets

Yea I definitely wrote more in the comments than usual for this one - reason why is I really wanted the reader to understand that this poem is not an entirely 'negative, hopeless void/dreams are the only positive moments in our lives' piece - sure, there's despair when reality strikes at the end in this poem.. and rightfully so in regards to the situation I'm writing about...

Rather, I wanted to establish a comprehensive distinction between the positive/negative elements of both dreams and our reality to really dissect the relationship between the two as quickly and effectively as i could.. less was more in this case of the poem, but not the comments

All in all, dreams are amazing; at their best, they can open our eyes to what we cannot see anymore..or never even thought of looking for...and at their worst, they can expose us to what makes us inept, what scares us from maximizing our potential - but no matter what we must inevitably return to reality at some point. Now, what that said, I believe the ultimate goal would be to find a way to take the impact of your dreams, absorb it, and incorporate that into what is real... really try to expose the best of both worlds, ya know? Just a theory.. it's far from perfect and I'm far from attaining it wholly, but I'll keep tryin'

As always thank you for the feedback

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a very insightful write

a very insightful write deepblue!

I like the dissapearing act at the end too! There were lots of very good ideas in this piece. I really enjoyed it and thinking about it afterwards you stole my time beautifully Congrats! Cheers SS


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

deepblue's picture

thank you very much

it is my pleasure to take up some of the time in your day - appreciation and encouragement are always welcome :) Best regards