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What Was And Is
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2013 I know I have said before
That I was a shaved lamb
And I was the the angel
With the dirty hands
I know I still have them
I know they are still dirty
But even worse
They are stained
They are now crimson
Yes, with blood
I have murdered
But not on purpose
No, not at all
But still I was convicted
“Unintentional manslaughter”
But I didn't go to jail
I was instead forced to live
With my parents at their house
For 3 years, and as if that wasn't enough
I still have another 12 years on probation
What do I do now?
Wait? Well, I guess I have to
Until what? These 15 years are over?
I guess I have to
Not like I want to
But still, I have to
Until I'm 42 it seems that I must
Live by their constricting ways
~Chrystal
Written on
March 22, 2013
Author's Notes/Comments:
I wrote this as an ode to my sentence. I was convicted of unintentional manslaughter. No I don't think that I will have to wait for my life to start in my fourties. It's already starting. 
This is a very powerful..
This is a very powerful, well written piece which clearly expresses both your anger, frustration, and eventual acceptance of what must have been a very painful episode of your life. Well done. You mention you have another 12 years to go on probation. As this was written in 2013, that would mean your probation would end next year. You won't be a slave to the penal system anymore. If you're not a slave, would that make you a master? I, for one, believe I am. A master who believes in probation. Yes, I'm definitely pro 'master'-bation.