As they search my broken mind
I must wonder what they'll find
thoughts of hate or thoughts of thrill?
Are there normal thoughts there still?
These thoughts don't work in normal ways
as the hours stretch on into days
Time and space are known to me
Yet hidden where I cannot see
As the madness creeps on in 
I feel the change as it begins
Lost now within my thoughts
not sure what it was I sought
Which is worse I cannot choose
This madness or to think of you
As I try to form a thought 
my sanity is quickly lost
as i fall beneath the wave
my mind will soon become a cave
empty and with darkness filled
hallowed but yet full of thrills
and just because they are not real
does not mean i do not feel
The creatures hiding in my skin
with open eyes I let them in
Into my thoughts and my brain 
I watch as it begins to rain
but is it really I'm not sure
this world of mine is quite obscure
some call it insanity 
but whos to say its not just me?

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Been feeling like im losing my mind lately with my emotions running my life the way they are 

LukeBurkman's picture

I hope you are that fucked

I hope you are that fucked up, therefore I won't feel so alone.


ClearThoughtsOfACloudedMind's picture

I feel like it

Especially lately, my night terrors went from about 2-3 times a month to 3-5 times a week in the last 2 months, that alone is enough to drive one crazy 


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nightlight1220's picture

The purpose of judgement and

The purpose of judgement and inspection is for the inspector and the judger....the subject of judgement is only the pawn they use to project their own insecurities onto someone else. Let it always be a lesson to know what you do not want to be. Use judgement to judge what is best for you. Use inspection to learn new ways towards understanding the many intricacies of others' and life itself. Learn to simply "observe".


I like the way you expressed this situation we all have at least once in our lives. 




...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "


darkpool's picture

a nice read, well

a nice read, well constructed, hangs together. I hope you're not really that f'd up.

ClearThoughtsOfACloudedMind's picture

Thank you very much! I only

Thank you very much! I only recently started writing poetry and to recieve such positive feedback is very nice! I suffer from depression and from insomnia so sometimes the thoughts can get pretty bizzare when you are depressed as hell and have been awake for 36hrs but writing helps so here we are! 

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