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Why?
i tried hard to forget it.
but no matter where i go it follows.
a puppy dog following its master.
although i am the puppy dog.
and my master is still unknown.
this contempt i have hurts inside.
without an excuse i fall away.
a mountaineer climbing mt. everast.
will i ever reach the top?
so many things i wish i could let out.
the razor against my skin strings along.
a musical depiction of anger and apathy.
but i do not play an instrament.
my tears run down my face.
it burns with a familiar memory.
one of passion and of fear.
just a touch of acid upon my lips.
if i could escape from this nightmare,
held inside this prision for so many years.
no way to describe the torment.
such a terrifying need to be free.
my hand shakes with sadness.
nothing turns time back around.
why can't i get ahold of this feeling?
reality slipping away so slowly,
until i can no longer grasp onto myself.
why?
why?!
WHY!?
i have no choice in this decision.
a pre-made hell designed for me.
why can't i struggle harder to let this go?
is there nothing more for me to fight for?
i wish that it was simple.
this feeling is way too complex for me.
i have found no one to understand it.
killing myself softly inside.
can't you hear my cries?
so how long must i wait?
these answers aren't here.
i feel like i am doomed.
no luck from the start.
just on my way to the end.
