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There are times when I feel so alone

Not really lonely...

But alone...

It's a trip how I can be in a room full of people

And still be the only one there



At the grocery store

At the mall

In the park

At the gym

In a restaurant

At the club



In my house right now with this brother sitting beside me



As I sit here having an entire dialogue with myself in my head



Like...

Why did I even allow him to come over here?

Who   is   he?

Why   is   he?

What   the   hell   is   he   talking   about?



I see the brother but I cannot FEEL him

I?m listening to the brother but I cannot HEAR him

And I really wish he would put my shoes back on my feet

Because I did not invite him over here

For   an   evening   of   tricks   or   treats



Damn

Where is the  s u b s t a n c e?

Where is the   s u s t e n a n c e?

Where is the     c o n v e r s a t i o n?

Where  is  his  mind  and  where  is  his  spirit?

Where is that vibe that makes  me    even     want     to    hear    -    it?



Where



Is



Mine?



Mineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...



Just give   me    -    m  e

((PLEASE))

Where is he?



The only one I?ve asked for

The  only  one  I?ve  prayed  for

The   only  one  I?m   waiting  for

The  only  one     I     am     claimed     for...



The one that prays with me before I go to sleep at night

And when I wake up in the morning he      is       there...



When  I'm  happy - he's there

When   I'm   sad - he's there

When    I'm   hurting - he's there

When     I'm   stressed - he's there

Dammit - when I?m blessed - he's there

When my entire world is surrounded by chaos

And I am up to my neck    in    a    mess...

He    is    there



But right now he is just a portion of my mind

A made wish from my heart that my soul longs to find

An echo within the bellows of my belly

A flame in my dark

A  piece  of  my  puzzle

A   tear   from   my   eye

A    beat   of    my   heart

The grind inside the winds of my future

As I hussle against fate

With  ALL  of  my  faith   in   ALL   that   I   love...

Where is he now?

Where  could  he  be?

Where   has   he   been?



When?



And where?



And how?



((HOW??????????))

How  will  I  SEE  when  it  is  him?

How   will   I   KNOW   when   it   is   him?

How    will  I  SHOW  him  that  I  KNOW  it is  him?



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