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When you can't look at your own reflection without crying,

You know your world is coming to an end.

When the razor blades and the heroin cease to release,

You know your time has run out.



You can sit in the bathroom and sob all you want,

But it won't change a thing.

The phone will ring, but you won't answer it.

The music will play, but you can't hear it.



In these faltering minutes,

Stuck in this brief moment of lucidity,

You know the mirror lies and that's not your face that stares back.

It's the face of the hate and rage and heartbreak that you know.



Where to go and what to do,

You don't know.

The whole world says you're beautiful,

But why can't you believe them?



The time has come to make a choice,

Live with yourself or put the rest to a bitter end?

Say this to yourself now, because you know it's true...

"Beauty is fake. Happiness is temporary. Death is forever."

Author's Notes/Comments: 

My little piece on how hideous I think I am.

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vettie's picture

This was real! I know people who need this piece, thanks!

Marvi Beckman's picture

i know life sucks but it doesnt have to all the time
read mine called awesome write (depression)

C. Hill's picture

Only you can see the true beauty that adorn you
all others can see it and tell you
but if you reject the reality and truth
of how majestic you really are
then in all eyes you will forever
hideous and ugly,for that is the
illusion you hold before your
own eyes.
quote " and she travels in beauty"

very powerful poem...excellently written

~Christina~

Kelly Gray's picture

This poem is awesome and sadly happened to me sometimes but im alright now and keep writing and ill keep reading.

Michelle Bevan's picture

Your honest hope things gain in your life loved your poem cause it is honest and like everyone would'nt care to admit good on you Love shells xx check out my happier writing or humour

Lauren B's picture

wow. You're a great author. You convey your feelings so well!! Everyone feels down on themselves once in a while. just know that you are loved and that there are those who do not see you as hideous.

Alana M's picture

This poem is amazing, and at times I have felt the same way as you, you need to learn to accept yourself for who you are and when you do you will have one of those moments of happiness that will last longer and longer each time you realize it. This poem is amazing written, and I would love to read more... Keep them coming..

~*Alana*~

Deborah Haley's picture

You are not hideous at all. As a matter of fact, you are beautiful just as God created you, regardless of any addiction that you may be at war with.
I can tell you one thing my friend, you have a talent with writing and your pain, expressed through words, can and will minister and help heal others who are going through the same things as you.
I am interested in your talent as a writer. I'm interested in you helping yourself which begins, sometimes, by helping others.
If you would like this to be published, I am a publisher and am willing to do that for you at no cost. Contact me and don't give up hope.
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Sincerely,
Deborah

Melanie Wilson's picture

I really like this poem. I think it was well written and you shouldn't put yourself down. you should believe what people tell you, if they say your beautiful believe them. I know its easier said then done, but if u do you'll feel a lot better bout yourself and im talkin from expreience. but this poem was AWESOME

Corey Fox's picture

it's a good poem. it's sad that You feel this way though.
one love Corey & co

Terri Cox's picture

I'm quite sure that you can't think of yourself like this!
Beauty is not fake. Everyone has it. And happiness can be permanent if you accept yourself.
Still, a great poem that shows great amount of emotion.

Jason Bickings's picture

Normally, I just skim over the daily poems and close my browser never to think about the poem again. This is one of the few that just grabbed me. It has reminded me of my own inner feelings.

Thanks for writing this.

--Jason--

Noelle S's picture

wow,it's a very well written peom......i'm was amazed.....good job

F Paris's picture

I have never read such a poem that shows the intellegent of the writer ... and so young you are! I plan on reading many more of yours, for I can tell I will be very impressed! You have a talent here which needs to be taken further ... I hope you can achieve that!

Shaketa Copelin's picture

Damn! Talk about morbid! I LOVED this piece, though I hope you aren't that damn hard on yourself...

vjochum's picture

I share your feelings. You've given us a well written piece of work, and believe it or not.....I needed to read something like this today.
Thank you.

darkpool's picture

Well written, I can share the desperation and futility.
I don't believe beauty is fake, it's just hard to see past the outer noise. And happiness is temporary, but it comes again and again, you just have to wait for it. That's what makes it special.

And yeah, Death is forever. It will come in its own sweet time, no need to rush it. There's always a shred of hope to grab onto somehow...

Ken

Stephanie Karpierz's picture

Very depressing, yet, understandable.
stephanie k.

Jenny Pearson's picture

All I can say is WOW!!!! This is powerful, it's amazing. If you think the mirror shows ugliness, then you need to take a look at the beauty inside that reflection. PEACE!

mar's picture

Hmmmm. Good poem. It is very good. But I don't agree with the last sentence. But still good.
Have a nice and beautiful life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~My Best Wishes~
:)