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10 Reasons I Asked You to Come Downstairs

Folder: 
Mental Illnesses

One;

   My room is in the basement,

   When we moved here,

   the only way I could get my own room

   was by living in the lonely, cold basement

   and I'm ok with that.

Two;

   I'm lonely and cold.

   Just because I enjoy solitude,

   does not mean I always like it.

   Expecially when my sister, who lives across the distant hall

   never makes it back home.

Three;

   I have been so happy,

   that a mental breakdown is too much for me.

   I have forgotten how to handle my own feelings.

   They overwhelm me.

   I'm overly emotional.

Four;

   I'm overly emotional.

   My wonderful relationship is so hard,

   and I need a mother's advice.

   Because if anyone can get me through this,

   it would be you.

Five;

   I just miss you.

   And I also miss dad.

   And my so called ex-bestfriend.

   And I miss being loved

   without worry.

Six;

   I'm so worried,

   about pratically nothing that needs to be worried about.

   Like if you are going to make it home safe from the grocery store,

   or if someone will kidnap my siblings while I'm hidden downstairs,

   or if the shadows will creep back in my room at night while I try to sleep.

Seven;

   I can't sleep.

   I am so tired,

   but I'm simply tired of life.

   It's so strenuous, I can't force myself

   to close my eyes and drift away.

Eight;

   I'm afraid.

   Of loosing you and those I love.

   Of you and those I love.

   Of strangers and people that don't exsist.

   Of living.

Nine; 

   I forogt how to live.

   It begun to get harder to breathe.

   I'm choking on my words, gasping just to say hello.

   I don't remember how to get out of this bed.

   My feet tripping over themselves; I cannot walk.

Ten;

   I think I want to die,

   but you can teach me to live.

  

Glorious Fight

 

Little by little

 

As time disappears

 

You start to get scared

 

Of your own shadows

 

 

 

Your muscles start to twitch

 

Your heart gets cold

 

Your skin is too frail

 

You slowly start to forget

 

 

 

Feelings start to fade away

 

All that is left within

 

Are tired excuses

 

Empty promises

 

 

 

Pain makes its way

 

It becomes hard for you to say

 

Yes, I still Love you

 

No, I don't Love you

 

 

 

You'll never be the same

 

Slowly losing this game

 

Still, the pulse survives

 

So you gather yourself up

 

One last time

 

 

 

Strips of colorful life

 

You so quickly hide

 

With a delightful sigh

 

Things that you held up high

 

Lost in this glorious fight

 

Nick Kler

Lies in my mind

You need me

I left you

You love me

I crushed you

You still want me

I want you

You said I loved you

I told you I don't believe in it

You said that it is in my actions

I felt it

You new it

I got scared

You held me

I pushed you away

I hate you

but you know its a lie

I walked out

You stayed

I was broken

You were to

I need you, I never told you

You needed me and you told me it everyday

I walked out that door

You gave me your heart

You took mine

This feeling scares me

I opened the door

you opened your arm

but they took me away from you

We are forbiden

this is goodbye

 


Author's Notes/Comments: 

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