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10 Reasons I Asked You to Come Downstairs

Mental Illnesses


   My room is in the basement,

   When we moved here,

   the only way I could get my own room

   was by living in the lonely, cold basement

   and I'm ok with that.


   I'm lonely and cold.

   Just because I enjoy solitude,

   does not mean I always like it.

   Expecially when my sister, who lives across the distant hall

   never makes it back home.


   I have been so happy,

   that a mental breakdown is too much for me.

   I have forgotten how to handle my own feelings.

   They overwhelm me.

   I'm overly emotional.


   I'm overly emotional.

   My wonderful relationship is so hard,

   and I need a mother's advice.

   Because if anyone can get me through this,

   it would be you.


   I just miss you.

   And I also miss dad.

   And my so called ex-bestfriend.

   And I miss being loved

   without worry.


   I'm so worried,

   about pratically nothing that needs to be worried about.

   Like if you are going to make it home safe from the grocery store,

   or if someone will kidnap my siblings while I'm hidden downstairs,

   or if the shadows will creep back in my room at night while I try to sleep.


   I can't sleep.

   I am so tired,

   but I'm simply tired of life.

   It's so strenuous, I can't force myself

   to close my eyes and drift away.


   I'm afraid.

   Of loosing you and those I love.

   Of you and those I love.

   Of strangers and people that don't exsist.

   Of living.


   I forogt how to live.

   It begun to get harder to breathe.

   I'm choking on my words, gasping just to say hello.

   I don't remember how to get out of this bed.

   My feet tripping over themselves; I cannot walk.


   I think I want to die,

   but you can teach me to live.


Glorious Fight


Little by little


As time disappears


You start to get scared


Of your own shadows




Your muscles start to twitch


Your heart gets cold


Your skin is too frail


You slowly start to forget




Feelings start to fade away


All that is left within


Are tired excuses


Empty promises




Pain makes its way


It becomes hard for you to say


Yes, I still Love you


No, I don't Love you




You'll never be the same


Slowly losing this game


Still, the pulse survives


So you gather yourself up


One last time




Strips of colorful life


You so quickly hide


With a delightful sigh


Things that you held up high


Lost in this glorious fight


Nick Kler

Lies in my mind

You need me

I left you

You love me

I crushed you

You still want me

I want you

You said I loved you

I told you I don't believe in it

You said that it is in my actions

I felt it

You new it

I got scared

You held me

I pushed you away

I hate you

but you know its a lie

I walked out

You stayed

I was broken

You were to

I need you, I never told you

You needed me and you told me it everyday

I walked out that door

You gave me your heart

You took mine

This feeling scares me

I opened the door

you opened your arm

but they took me away from you

We are forbiden

this is goodbye


Author's Notes/Comments: 

For you, only you.