Bad Love

Reality

It's a hard lesson to learn, 

That what you think,
Everything thing you feel.
Doesn't matter one bit.
To someone who says,
You mean the world to them. 
When you'd move mountains for them, 
If you could.
Everything you do,
Everything you say,
Every move you make,
Is made with them
And their feelings in mind.
Then their words sting like whips, 
The intent is hard to miss.
Cutting like knives across your heart.
Carving the pain into your soul.
Leaving you scarred.
Believing you're not good enough,
It's too much to hope for to be happy.
It's too much to wish that you'd be loved. 
Fully and unconditionally accepted.
Wishing to be treasured.
That your heart would be held With care.
That you'd find a love,
Whose words are chosen wisely. 
Makes promises they keep. 
And whose love would soothe your wounded soul.
 
 
Author's Notes/Comments: 

Version 1... it's not really done....

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Getting what I want

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A Love

Now you’ve done it,
Made me worth spit.
I heard your chat,
Venom spat.
I think you know,
You just don’t show.
Don’t wind me up.
Shut the fuck up.
Hate that you annoy me so,
Please die, just go.
Do you think it’s fair?
Do you want me to care?
Anger boiling my gut,
Can’t believe I’m in this rut.

But what can I say?
I’m just a cliché.
Cannot help it,
Tongue has to be bit.
Really hating on you,
Your closed point of view.
But talk outside my door,
Talk like a whore.
You wanted me to hear,
It’s hurting me you don’t fear.
It’s alright and it’s okay,
I don’t care if you’re not that way.
Just give me the spoon,
Cos I’ll get my taste soon.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Apologies for some of the "language", being in love and angry about it isn't a good mix.

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Struggling

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A Love

Who claimed it would be fun?
They need shooting with a gun!
It’s destroying all I want or try to be,
When all I’m doing is being me.
It’s hurting me to live,
When all I do is give.
It’s crushing me into nothing,
A bird that can’t sing.

It builds me up then knocks me down,
Is this how I earn my crown?
I can’t have what I yearn for,
Wishing it easy to ignore.
Feeling like a whiny bitch,
A boring constant itch.
A problem you can’t solve,
The person who can’t evolve.

Without a single friend,
I’d want it all to end.

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Breathing Space

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A Love

Forgetting you,
Is hard to do.
I need my space,
But we’re in the same place.
We meet too often,
The Heartache can’t soften.
Is this ever going to end?
It’s driving me round the bend.
Stop this evil witchcraft,
I’m drowning without a life raft.
Can you leave me alone?
Deleting you from my phone.
Will you stop bothering me?
I’m finding it hard to be free.
You punch me with your presence,
Your soul has such a powerful essence.
I must get over it,
This feeling is so shit.
I’m writing words to destroy this hell,
I’m hoping they will break your spell.

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