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I weep through the words that I write

You see through blinders with your sight

   It’s been a long time since I’ve thought sober

   I used to think I was happy when high

   I thought using would make my sadness over

   Now I feel like I’m where I left off

   When complications in life were beginning

   I still feel deep down in a trough

   For reasons beyond comprehending

I weep through the words that I write

You see through blinders with your sight

   Once I thought it was certain situations

   I used to think it was people in my life

   It’s apparent that my sorrows are trite

   I’m still not sure why that is exactly

   Maybe it’s because I feel lost or weak

   Or because I’m scared or lonely

   But I know it’s me, and why I will seek

I weep through the words that I write

You see through blinders with your sight

   I’ve finally come to terms with my actions

   I know it’s time to be responsible

   To start living anew for satisfactions

   And think that all things are possible

   I feel shame and put blame on me

   My mother puts blame on her

   Others tell me to blame this disease

   But every way there’s still depression to conquer

I weep through the words that I write

You see through blinders with your sight

   As an adolescent my self-esteem was poor

   Using and drinking gave me a golden mask

   This only hurt myself and others more

   Now clean, and myself is still out of grasp

   I find it hard to move on

   I’ve lived a life of tragedy

   Your blinders still aren’t gone

   Because I sustain them with comedy

I weep through the words that I write

You see through blinders with your sight

   I’m still a lonely individual

   Wanting things to be my way

   Because my nature is habitual

   Trusting is still very hard for me today

   Through these words you hear me weep

   But do you know me or even care?

   This pen is my emotions as they bleed

   I hardly know me and I’m scared to share

I weep through the words that I write

You see through blinders with your sight