You Can Not Cut the Heart

why do we carve this deep within

we hold the knife against our skin

the steel is cold, the edge is sharp

our canvas is the crimson tarp

unconsciously we let it slip

blood around the handle grip

release the red amusement park

and only slightly miss the mark



we slice the tension of the day

the hours slowly fade away

The message pumps within our veins

dark thoughts, low worries, greater pains

never do we dare to cry

masks we wear are held up high

walls are built and shields are raised

our dreary distant eyes are glazed



our parents knock upon the door

the tide will break upon the shore

we used to run the them for aid

now we run a dismal blade

past the love, hate and regret

we watch it flow, drip, dry and set

hide the knife beneath the bed

wash the sheets on which we bled

open the door to let them in

pretend  we're fine and force a grin



what help is there for those of us

who hide the hurt and don't discuss

each and ever dark desire

covered up by steel and fire

the heart is such a fragile thing

and cruelty has a brutal sting

how do we push emotions aside

some choose to wear them with pride

still other wash them with red

how many times has your heart bled



perhaps there is a better way

to hold the greater storm at bay

but for now we'll be alright

as the daylight fades to night

and the storm clouds open up

with these veins to fill my cup



be still the dripping of the rain

behold the dripping of our pain

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I had a friend who was a cutter.  I've seen and read a lot of poems on this site written by cutters.  I thought I'd ad to them.  It started off as a poem to comment on how many there are these days and how they can't all be feeling that much pain.  I changed my mind because i've been close to that point on many occasions and if i didn't have such a strong will i would have done it.  I just think that there has to be a better way.  Nothing against those who cut but it only helps for a short time.  You can't cut the heart without actually cutting the heart.  There is way to much beauty in the world to do that so really it's pointless to try.

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