The posture of a broken man.

This what brings me to my knees.
I struggle day in and day out.
realizing I am stuck.
stripped of sanity.
emotion.
alone and no money.
I am broke.
Stripped of everything I ever loved.

This is my dead skin.
living in remorse of my past mistakes.
trying to keep going foreword not sure witch decision to make.
Looking through photo albums of my past.
collecting all my finances and adding up the differences.
No math will explain this equation I have in front of me.
The bills are high the money doesn't add up.
the people are gone the memories don't comfort their absence

stuck in this position. sitting against my bed.
overlooking my checks at my dead end job.
looking at a dirty mess of what I call home.
photos laid out, empty pill bottles scattered along the floor.
a mattress with no sheets to bury my tears.
cloths that I never wear out.
riddled with filth and a stench of low end fast food grease and pay.

burying my eyes because a I cant stand the sight of this.
Crying, hopelessly silently as I wish the same wish I always seem to wish.
"please I wish to achieve my dreams."
Its been a year and I have such a short amount of time and money saved.
I cant help think that I am stuck.
I saved enough for a one way plane ticket.
fly me away. take me away. from here.
from everything. from my dead end job and lonely walls
that echo with my sobs as if its mirrors feeling sorry for struggles.

I have all this ambition, talent and intuition.
but no place to make use of it.
I am wasting away. pissing away everything I dream of.
Its five days till my birthday.
I should save up everything I get.
pawn everything i own
rid myself of belongings and find the world I have been looking for.
For this is the decision of a broken man.

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Daniel-59's picture

As was said ....Either things

As was said ....Either things are that bad and it inspires or your talent is remarkable!!!
I'm betting on talent ~ DD ~


Every story-teller bends the myth to his own purpose. that's why a Hero has a thousand faces

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Nothing is better than

Nothing is better than knowing my words can inspire people. I actually recently started writing a not so short story on here that I add too from time to time. Its called "FYR" I started it writing it just for kicks i have a few printed copies that I show relatives but I uploaded pieces of it when I feel like typing it up. But I would reccamend checking it out. I pull a lot of the story (witch is fictional) from past experiences and things i ve witnessed. Its a long read I plan on it being an actual book hopefully maybe. But I would love some feedback or things that you may belive I can improve on. Its a completely differant type of writing I am not used to. But its very intriguing and I hope to get better at it.

But once again. Its the best feeling ever knowing that somebody was moved by what I have written. Thanks for taking the time to to read. and i apologize I dont try and read others peoples work as much as I wish I could. But hey there is always room for improvement. Thanks. for the feedback. It means a lot.


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SSmoothie's picture

wow youre poetry is so darn

wow youre poetry is so darn compelling! either things are that bad and it inspires or your talent is remarkable!!! keep on fighting the good fight. Nothing ever worth having came easy. HugSS


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."