Am I Love Drunk? Or Just Stone Fuck Nuts?

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Have you ever met someone in life.
and thought after a few minutes into conversation
"they were the one you were destined to fall in love with"
I am not one for destiny until i was swept so far off my feet.
I never been so intoxitacted by someones beauty and personality.
it hurts. it aches to the point i cant sleep.
but when i sleep she is always reaccuring in my dreams.
i dream of simple stuff
waking her up with breakfast in bed
i dream of sleeping next to her smelling the scent of her freshly washed hair
i dream off an everyday life that is simple and easy
i dream of picking her up when she is down.
its all selfless thoughts.
i just want to make this girl my world
usually i am filled with thoughts of what she can bring to me.
of things she would change in my life.
but its differant. becuase i would want nothing more
than her just being in my life.
what is this feeling.
its been months, and it wont go away.
girls have came girls have gone
but this irl wont leave. she is everywhere i am.
she is independent, i am slowly working back twords being so.
but since i met her, she is my drive to get back to the independence of my life
i never worked so hard in my life.
i want to love this girl. i want to be wake up next to her everyday.
i dont get dreams of lust and sex. i get dreams of life and love.
and a life built around the foundations i can only dream to set.
what is this?
am i just a man and its merly a childish crush.
its consuming me. and i cannot not think of her.
she is the beautiful girl i have ever met.
code named tiger eyes. i always write about her too.
its strange. i never achieve anything i set my mind to in life.
it shows becuase history repeats itself.
but if i cant love this girl the way i need to love her.
i will be lost forever. what is this feeling?
its overwhelming. she takes my breath away.
and my thoughts are flooded. with her eyes.
i just dont know, if i am crazy,
i know i overthink. but i dont think enough.
its never satisfying,
i want no one else.
nothing else matters.
what am i feeling?
why cant I reach it?