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to chuck my phone off of a roof

to never have to think about you again

to not feel the weight of what we committed together

to be right

and also to be wrong

to see you right now

to not have given so much

to not have taken so much

to have part of me back

for you to be responsible

for you to have known better

to admit that I'm only 20

to hold your hand and have it be okay

to slap you in the face for not caring about me

to kiss you because you’re my friend

to yell at you because you don’t talk

to drown my phone in Lake Washington

to please absolutely everyone

to quit

everything

to show you how I view life

to explain myself

to be understood

to give and receive

to already be passed this

to laugh about us

to say things like, “it was so long ago”

to still be with you

to praise the Lord

to have both

to undo a lot

to erase memories

to forget images

you to love me

you to not just like me

for me to feel comfortable

this to never have happened

to not be in the process of healing

to wash myself once and for all

for you to not be embarrassed of my age

for me to feel the same

for this to have had a possibility of working so I wouldn't feel so ridiculous for crying

for you to know how bad this actually hurts me

for me to have will power

to not feel like it’s my responsibility to stop this

to not feel shame

to not feel regret

to not feel the pain

to not feel silly

to not feel like I’m blowing this out of proportion

to not feel

but to not be numb

to be validated in my hurt

to be done

to do it one more time

to have energy

to have Him

to forgive myself

to be indifferent towards you

for you

space

closeness

to be held and

just to be