A reason without you

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Grief

I watch the fire dance,
cold without your touch,
empty inside without you there.

I fight with myself each day,
my walls are stronger now.

You’re not here to tell me to smile,
not here to keep me from fading.

The girl I let you see,
she’s faded from sight,
a new face has replaced the one you knew.

I sit here bleeding,
you’re not here to tell me to stop.

Living without you,
yet dead inside,

I want to join you.
The pain has enclosed me,
my ghosts coming unburied.

Tell me why I’m still here,
when inside I feel nothing.

I’ve changed inside,
lost myself in darkness again,
but I don’t care anymore,
I want to stay here.

Without you,
the light feels toxic,
without you,
I don’t want to go home.

He says he loves me,
but I’m slipping away.

Deeper into darkness,
falling closer to you.

Each cut brings me farther,
pulls me away from him.

Give me a reason to keep breathing,
to take the blade from my throat.

When all I crave is you,
to be free, like you.

Make the pain stop,
make my tears stop falling,
give me a reason to stop the bleeding.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

D/T: Chris R.I.P.

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