I love you so much...

That I hate you.

My heart feels like an unguarded castle

That every night, you breech without so much as a thought

Guiltless and ignorant, you smile at me

I breathe it in, as necessary as the air I live on

And you're oblivious and unyielding

Careless and cruel

Your name creeps into my mind every day

Taking me unaware as I sigh with the thought of you

And you laugh when I call you

And you tell me we're barely friends

How could you not know

When I look into your eyes, I feel naked

You see right through me, yet you see nothing at all

That's all I am to you, nothing...

And I love you

And it hurts

And I know you'll never love me back

And I don't want to love you.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This isn't even a poem, and I refuse to say these are acctual feelings.  

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