"You could have been a radio,"
my mother used to say,
"or a rock. Would you like to be a rock?"
I said "no...," I guessed not...
but I'd stare up at the stars
and imagine my body being
cellestial energy, a whole world
of life, it could be mine!
I know - you don't understand,
I know it matters nothing
to you...
And then they ask me
where my dad has been,
and all I can muster:
"kind of more interested in his blonde and her pussy"
but that's kind of gross...
Perhaps I should just downplay:
"Oh, it's not so bad, I'm just bitching,"
I'd say,
speaking in "non sequiturs,"
maybe to an ignoramus;
my body being metaphors and
vinegar ice cream.
And my mother, well,
she knows he's been cantankerous,
he and his babe's butt,
and the jealousy might be back but,
she asks me for a meaning
and she asks me what it is
I WANT TO BE
and all I could muster:
"I've been thinking...
A LOT
about that radio."