Away in AZ

The first thing I hear tonight

Is the whine of an ambulance

And I realize that

Someone’s night is worse than mine



I thought I was safe

Until I read what

You said to him and

I just couldn’t trust you again



I wish I was back at the ocean

Standing in the cool breeze

Tasting the salt in the air

Before I couldn’t stand you.  



Before I felt like you

Were taking over

My breaths are cut short

Almost suffocating in your body heat





I am a werewolf

Who locks himself in his room

To spare his friends and family and

Any others he may encounter



I sit and wait it out

Wait for sleep to take over

And in the morning

I know it will be better



I will emerge healthy

My bad tempers will

Leave me and everyone else

Alone



This is why I can’t be happy

Something is always

Hitting me in the back of the head

Wanting out. Wanting to be felt



Sometimes I just can’t live with myself

I want to be a strong person

For my friends, who need it,

And my family, who expect it



I thought I was moving far away

But you still fill my thoughts

Everyday I hurt, ache

From both missing you, and hating you



I look at this painting in my room

And as my friend asks,

“How does it make you feel?”

All I can think of is you



You’ve scattered my thoughts

Like the subjects of this poem.  

Cut up into puzzle pieces

Waiting to be put together

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God, I don't know your story but the restlessness of love and loss is so universal that I can relate, if at very least, to the emotions displayed in this piece.

My favourite sections:

I sit and wait it out
Wait for sleep to take over
And in the morning
I know it will be better

I will emerge healthy
My bad tempers will
Leave me and everyone else
Alone

This is why I can’t be happy
Something is always
Hitting me in the back of the head
Wanting out. Wanting to be felt

I thought I was moving far away
But you still fill my thoughts
Everyday I hurt, ache
From both missing you, and hating you

You’ve scattered my thoughts
Like the subjects of this poem.
Cut up into puzzle pieces
Waiting to be put together

Nicely done. Truly.