Internal Tears

They don’t understand that I’m dying inside,

And the tears roll down- But they don’t see me cry.

They never leave my eyes- And never touch my cheeks,

The tears and tissue never meet- The world will never see.

These tears stay inside of me- It’s how it has to be.

No one knows all the pain I feel- What I see isn’t real,

Sometimes I just want to steal- Another person’s life,

Just to see what it’s like- To see if they’re empty,

If they fight this fight.

I want to know who else feels this strife- Who’s empty inside,

Who feels this pain- But always they hide.

Behind they’re outside appearance- Who screams and no one hears it,

Who’s vision is blurry- And they have no one to clear it.

No one understands- Or at least I feel they don’t,

I want them to help- But they won’t.

Because they can’t- You can’t help what you can’t see,

You can’t see inside of me.

But it’s so clear when I write- These words illustrate my fight,

I’ve put it in your sight- And you just look at me like.

“Why are doing this?- This can’t be healthy”,

Well why don’t you help me- Not one person has felt me.

Or known what I was saying- They all think I’m playing,

Because they don’t see the tears- And they don’t know my fears,

And never once have I appeared- To be upset or scared.

But every day I cry- And every day I die,

Hoping that they’ll try- Or stare into my eyes.

And see into my soul- And that I’m only half whole,

And my feelings are so cold- At one point they were gold.

But now I am nothing- I lock it all away,

And as another day comes- I slip back into my slum,

I become and emotional bum- Thoughts, I have none.

And inside I cry- As my tear ducts remain dry,

I sit here and I try- To write to get by.

It seems I’m living a lie- Because I lock away my fears,

And I let no one near- But I still want them to see,

Me cry my internal tears.









Michael C. Lucas

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Jellesa Edwards's picture

Hey,

It's one of my favorites, just to let you know! You wrote this poem reading my mind and heart you know... I've been trying to find somebody who knows how it fels to hide your true feelings inside just to get by, to have to write because people believe your feelings can't be right. I thank you for every poem that you've written that has expressed my die hard feelings. You have an amazing talent and keep it up, your only gettin better.

"Keep ya head up Fam"

Sincerly,
Ya Lil Sis

Elizabeth Nieves's picture

I really loved this poem. I can relate so well to it. I felt like you were writing about me cause i hide my pain my sorrow my tears and even mysle half the time. I don't let people know exactly who I am because i want them to find out for themselves. I want them to want to take time to get to know me and journey with me through my mind

much luv