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Shattered Dreams
My life's been full of disappointments- Heartaches and let downs,
I thought I was away from it all- So I let my guard down.
And that I smile I used to have- Has been replaced with a frown,
And that princess I used to cherish- No longer wears her crown.
I'm back by myself- Just like when I started,
The only difference is this time- The kid is cold hearted.
Fuck having sympathy- No one gave shit to me,
Had to fight through it alone- Had to play the hand giving to me.
Seems everyones back was turned- They looked the other way,
Suddenly they recognize my talent- Now they got shit to say.
"You can make it big"- "Your writing is unbelievable",
"I can relate to it so much"- But they don't understand that my pain is inconceivable.
Everything I've ever wanted- Is too far out of sight,
So how do I deal with my Life?- I sit back and I write.
But even this doesn't do it- It's only a piece of the puzzle,
It doesn't make up for my losses- It doesn't compensate for my struggles.
Inside of my mind- I press the button to rewind,
Back to the times before I started writing rhymes.
When shit was so clear- I knew exactly what I wanted,
The hopes of being successful- Having a whole lot of money.
It was so long ago- Well, that's the way it seems,
Because these days those memories- Are nothing but shattered dreams.
Michael C. Lucas
This is a very moving piece. I agree with you in saying that people do say they relate to what they think you've gone through, but they have no idea how you really felt. However, I will say that I can feel the emotion you put forth in this and say that within those words, I can understand some of what you've gone through because reading it the way you have it stated, I've gone through something similar. I am not going to tell you things will get better because that could possibly be a lie, nor will I tell you to try and be strong because then I would be lying to myself because I know inside that no one can ever feel the pain I've been feeling since I was young, nor am I strong. However, I am here to tell you that you have a remarkable talent and that I am glad you shared this with all of us. Excuse the long comment I've posted here, but I just wanted to express something to you. Thanks again.
Michelle