Always Broken Hearted 8/19/04

Why does it have to be this way

I can’t forget your face

It’s like a memory on pause

Which I can’t move away from or replace

I just want you to hold me

Hold me like before

Tell me all those sweet things you told me

Just once more

Why do I want to be with you so bad?

Why do I still dream of you....

& long for the relationship that we never had?





I want to be happy

But don’t want myself to be happy without you

I don’t want to let go

Don’t tell me again that it’s through

& tell me I have to move on

Don’t tell me that soon you’ll be gone



You have pieces of me

I guess that’s what you don’t see

Why did it have to end so fast?

Why can’t we be together?

Maybe if I looked better

Or what I do not know

For whatever reason

I just can not let go



Today I sat down for the first time

I looked at the few pictures I have of you and I

For no apparent reason I began to cry

Why did things have to get so screwed up

The few times we were together just isnt enough

Something tells me to stay

When I should push the feelings away



Maybe there’s still hope

Letters locked away

inside white envelopes

Letters I write but know I’ll never send

Letters that I write just to ease the pain

Just to try and mend





I wish that you would let me in

Why did you give up on me so fast

And just shove me in your past

Am I not worth your time

Am I not what you hoped to find?

Its hard for me sometimes

To recognize my dreams from my reality

But I would give you everything I have

Go ahead just take it out of me



But is that to much for you

To much to understand

Just walk with me now

Maybe hold my hand

please dont say a word

more than likly it will just hurt me

whatever would be heard

I will try and show you

Try and show you who I am

maybe so you can understand

that it will be hard

But if you want me to give up on us

......Eventually I can



Am I just too much

Not deserving of your touch?

Place your hand over my heart

Can you feel the missing beat

That’s were it hurts

That’s where I’m torn apart



Here I am once again pleading for a someone to love me

just wishing that they cared

But I can’t beg anymore

So I’ll close my eyes

And shut the door

Lay alone in my bed

With you stuck inside my head

I wish I could go back to talking to you on the phone

hours on end

when you wanted to be more than just my friend



I try to make my self understand again

That you can’t make someone feel things that they don’t

Just except the fact that he even wants to be your friend.

I will not forget

I’ve thought about it

And giving it up to you is not what I regret

It’s getting to attached so soon

like I always do

I got attached agian this time it was with you



So here I am once more

right back where I started

but I’m still just stupid Erica

always broken hearted.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

It always seems that Im not enough or im way too much.I'll never know,Somday things will work out though Ill never give up.I know somtimes things are just though.

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