frustration.

hot iron words
SUFFOCATING verbs
(i remain with a zippered mouth)
ignorance bliss
a hit AND a miss
(your distance screams, SHARPEST of all knives)
how can i deny
this hurting inside
(is it all just a bad dream?)
is it really all that it seems?

yell at me with your SILENCE
cmon make me feel violence
somehow it's what i can't feel
because in essence that reaction's not real
i hate counterfeit images
of you not caring at all
with your face set as a stone
and your pride standing so tall
rip it out of my mind
so my tears reverse their trails
tear it away from my heart
undo the blood on my nails
(from ripping my hair out)

(SCREAMing my lungs out)
and i want to doubt
that you never really cared
never cared at all

(why is it this way?)
when i can't say all i've been wanting
and this heartache is more than a haunting
(because ghosts are harder to see)
but your memory's eating at me
(like a never ending feeling
sadness is kneeling
my eyes are peeling
like dried blood on the ceiling

(my thoughts you are stealing.(

but i know your soul is in
just a much pain as mine
difference is i let it out
while you pretend you are fine
but soon it will eat away
all your calloused decay
what you thought was happiness
will then sink down in your veins
and die in breathing
slowly revealing (TRUTH.)

my prayers proceed to you
(and your womb) of a memory coming so soon
all you wanted was for me to say i'm happy for you
but how can i be when it's cause brings pain
(more than pleasure) you're so clever
to fool your own self
in to thinking never (you.)

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wow... this is a deep piece. I absolutley love it.. You are very very talented.. I like the way you put it because it has such a beautiful flow to it... It really fits and its amazing.. good work.