Nobody is ever really broken, its all bullshit.

 

Yeah, yeah,
you broke me...
You think?
you cant break anyone or anything that feels an emotion
because we control our own.
we lend out shit on permanent loan
and freak when it comes back before its due.
what a sad sack of stories
with a bullshit word for emotion.
suck it up and understand
you cant break what is never broken
its not like your word.
its an emotion.
if youre feeling like shit
and you wanna go and carve it out of your skin
well skin. that can be broken.
and if you do it yourself that's a cut
and that is not broken skin
its stupid.
and you know it.
but why don't you stop?
because you love it.
more than yourself.
the ritual screams
but rituals can be broken
but you know it.
your heart is big enough for every joy and every sorrow.
just think about that for a while...
but you wont
you know it.
instead you will go on believing youre broken
and youre not
and you know it.

 

   

Author's Notes/Comments: 

yeah i iknow it needs work...

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nightlight1220's picture

We use the term to express

We use the term to express our pain. When a mother sees her child suffer... it "shatters her heart into a million pieces", but because of the love, she overcomes the pain. When we lose a lover to death, it breaks is in two. We are ""broken" in spirit, but the memories they leave us give us great strength and power over the pain. When we lose a job, we feel hurt...destroyed as a person with any worth, and yet the experience raises the bar for us to seek out a better job. These are all examples of love working in our lives...IF we choose to reach for it. 

 

When love seemingly "breaks your heart"...it is not broken. It is a gift. A gift you can chuck to the wind, or accept and reach higher heights. People get stuck is feeling sorrow...I guess because they learned that means something more worthy than growing.

 

My way is this, and mind you, only because a therapist taught me and it worked:  Number one be honest. If you feel pain, scream in a pillow, go in the backyard and break an old vase on a rock, punch your bed (that's always a good one), and do it to exhaustion. Number two, afyer you get your composure be kind to yourself. Take a bubble bath. Do your nails. Look at the things you love in your life that you have accomplished. Number three, talk about it if that is possible. If it means reaching out to a stranger in therapeutic counseling (if you can find an ethical one). Number four, is accept the reality of the situation. Number five is create a plan to avoid the same thing happening again. It is easy after the first time...and yet, most people in the group I was in either had problems with the acceptance part, or they became so averted by the acceptance that caused them to be dysfunctional in the problem area and ran from it to another problem exactly like it...making the same mistakes again. It was truly interesting.

 

People stay "broken" because they like it.--- "TRUE"

 

I hail...to the word artist. 


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

SSmoothie's picture

I am totally enthralled by

I am totally enthralled by these discussions! And yes you gotta FEEL it. thats how you know you are alive but you also gotta rationalise it. you dont move on from it either. it is with you forever but it will not control you for ever. eventually you will wake up and see what you are missing by the behaviours and then the risks outweigh the comfort. and happiness is addictive... so is sorrow. so is the rollercoaster. but the point here is nothing is broken its all working perfectly. its being human. and thats okay. I love your advice nightlight. I have a few variations of my own on it. but your emotions are felt. you are never broken and at any time you can choose something better. but it always starts with understaniding that we are individuals born alone self suffient and who we chose to share our lives with is usually symbiotic. if its not then there is something wrong it becomes a parasite. who wants to be that??? not me. I dont control my emotions I shape them. thats an important thing to know. I also dump them along the road and come across them on my way back. they are always there. sometimes I walk past them. sometimes I visit. sometimes I forget what they are what they are for. the joys of being unbreakable! :) hugss love to hear more of what everyone thinks!


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

nightlight1220's picture

I agree. Choice is always

I agree. Choice is always there. I do see it differently than you in some big ways, but for the part about choice, yes...it is a choice (sometimes many, and not so easy), I am glad you have art as an outlet to deal with your lack of control. I do enjoy your work immensely!!

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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

nightlight1220's picture

The message is good. I hope

The message is good. I hope to have a chance to read it afyer you work on it. I have been very busy doing some home decorating....mostly painting. Haven't had much chance to come on here.

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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

Morningglory's picture

whether or not if it needs

whether or not if it needs work, I liked the read. Funny how many of us keep thinking ourselves broken. I'm not broken, I have healing scars... (not from a razor though. I don't cut. my scars are in my heart.)


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