Waiting for the fuss.

Lying in a puddle of self delusion
Wallowing in confused illusions
Speaking of names and times
Waiting for the fuss.

Validating crimes pointing out the faces
Searing through my mind all the lonely places
Can I trust this mud, this stupid sod of dirt?
Slipping, sliding forcing sludge up toes, i'm girt!
Waiting for the fuss.

Picking at the bones, looking into hollows;
Checking under rocks. Who's there?
Why did you make me come? Why did I follow?
I don't want to be here. I shouldn't have come...
Forget waiting for the fuss.

Trusting of the shadows, deeper I went. devoid of feeling.
Hearing the echoes of the footprints I am chasing, chasing me.
I walked and stopped. frozen. I could not move magnetized to ground.
I felt the fear. The irrational terror. The demon had now come.
Damn waiting for the fuss!

I was alive! I could feel;
he smiled and danced around me! flashing his evil smile still,
He tapped me on the shoulder reminding me to take another pill.
He vanished leaving me alone to handle all my ills
I shrugged my shoulders spun around and heard a siren call.
It was the alarm I had set to give a wake up call.

I went to kitchen quite happy and relieved,
I took a pill and waited for the bus.
then, it hit me all at once
it hit me the bus.
And I waited,
Waited for the fuss...

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Ahhhh I thinks it finally done! I think...? Now I know it's done! ...I hope? Lol!

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Woa! Wow! What a wonderful

Woa! Wow! What a wonderful poem!

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You make me grin

Ear to ear! I have much respect for your work sir! Anything new? I'm re-reading quite a few! Cheers SS


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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I regigged this

I wanted to be better like yours... You inspire me Fitzy ;)


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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i love this line: 'Hearing

i love this line:

'Hearing The echoes of footprints I am chasing, chasing me.'

it's exactly how I feel right now about my love life, like it goes in circles, and I end up being chased by what I chase. I won't let love go and now that I wnat it gone it huants me! so love that line.


Much Love

Ashley

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That feeling...

Lol! I completely understand that response and I had to admit I thought of that old' problem of mine when I wrote that line. Lo! There's always that one... It's about figuring out the mysteries that cause so much fuss. Bored at first We get sucked in self absorbed then when it hits us we freak out 'why me?' we ask. Ignorant it is of our own making. I am a victim of this often too. It gives me a headache ibeuprophen please! ;) thanks so much! :)


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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no wonder we got on so well

no wonder we got on so well lol!
we are twins


Much Love

Ashley

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Lol!

Aren't we gorgeous! ;)


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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:) we really are! we should

:) we really are!

we should try and write something together sometime love


Much Love

Ashley

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U know what I'm scared as hell

But I friken love the idea! my only concern is I don't want to put you offside I can get silly! ;) but if were twins I'm sure we can handle eachothers creative genius with respect and tlc lol!


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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i think that poem would break

i think that poem would break souls in two! lol we would be so simular yet so different and people would not know what to feel

I SAY WE NIKE THAT POEM!


Much Love

Ashley

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Well because Adidas why not!

Adidas
A.ll. D.ay I. D.ream A.bout S.tanzas ;)
We'll puma it
Poem Under Mutual Agreement lol!


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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omg I <3 you! lol that was

omg I <3 you! lol that was awesome


Much Love

Ashley

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Ha ha!

;) just saw it! Lol!


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."