Cross hairs and cruel winds

The wind cruelly echoes your name
as it whips past slapping hard my face
I speak of a thousand silent hopes and
beg forgiveness with a thousand silent prayers
I wish it gone I wish it back
Ive lost hours in hopeless dreams
And an eternity fighting your seductive call
Bring me back your fold
Hurl me forward away from your hold
I carry my own defense against cupids misguided arrows
I walk with my bow arched gracefully back,
Arrows of repent in my quiver stacked but hardly drawn.
kiss me just once
Stop!
Kiss me never.
On my lips an ache I hide
they for you will never divide
Kiss my cheek whisper in my ear
catch my breath
Your lips so near,
I want to turn for just a fraction
Lips dangerously close
husky voice sends shivers of
Harmonious quavers down my spine
Warm sweet air of breath taken
I freeze I take you in
drawing on you deeply
you fill my senses I weaken in my defenses
And reality bites hard sinking in
alarm bells ringing ruckus in my ears
Put the fire out! I blink.I snap. I slap hard your ardor
I turn to ice and steely I gaze through the cross hairs
I can't think the ground is too hard to swallow me
I look up and the shadow of you hits me
Fork in my tongue lies hidden words choked by
The fear of overwhelming desire consumed
Infused with your heady scent on me in my twilight zone
Flick the switch. And zapp you balk and call me
Down to my gallows where I cut out your heart
And made a peace offerering in burnt sacrifice
You are so good to me you hold your champion
Ways well. You care too much you feel so deeply
You haven't hit the bottom yet.
I drop. I stop. falls broken by ledges,
clinging and dragged I let go periodically
The cycle repeats though less often now because
You have a void to fill with other fine muses
And this cruelly confounds my confusion
I move in contorted shapes to manuever
My way into your scenic circle ever so casual,
Dancing on your trails sweeping other muses out
Youre in my sights I line you up in my cross hairs,
you catch me, you reach to pull
I want you to, you are not mine
but you are of mine still,
I cannot stay, you cannot go
Tearing round the roundabout like the old carousel
The grass is worn we've tread the path so well
Round and round catching up but never enough
Each time we part we break bread with our hearts
The nectar of our souls the mead of our sorrow
Let's turn towards the stars in hope and make a wish
That this will pass and this shall end
and our light will reach the the furthest point
Quenched of longing and selfish regret
Cleanse the want and fill our cups and
re acquire the tastes of ours, not ours.
And find peace and content away from
The claws of lust though this is never true
Because the strength in us to keep undestroyed
The lusty desires always secondary never arbitrary
as is love it is time again to renew those vows
Another aeon of almost nothings.
Sweet as they are your name turns to an echo
Once again i burn your heart fearfully in repent
and the wind whips across my jaw
Invoking prayers again...
I lament.

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Cause babe smooth sailing is

Cause babe smooth sailing is pleasant for a while but gets boring, so shaking it up makes the emotions run deep, you always want what you can't have and when you get it even for a moment is like the most powerful drug, gold old fashioned un is great but like I always say you need light and shadows to make sense of a form. I never take anything for granted anymore. I'm all the stonger for it but a good old fashion drive off pedal the medal, love songs at the beach in the moonlight is oh so darn good plus making up and all the games who the hell would want to figure it out? If you want it go out and make it walk with your chin up looking at the world not your feet. Games... Yep inventing your own rules... True love shows over time and expects nothing. Real love is very demanding, has expectations and is satisfying. People love us the way they can not the way we want and we have to accept love in the form it is given or find another form gee you got me going again! Lol! Any challengers welcome he he ;) love your new stuff btw!


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

running_with_rabbits's picture

I am not going to lie, that

I am not going to lie, that was long and I had trouble staying with it. I have never been good with long poems, I swear I have poetry ADHD. :)

I loved the ending, and the cycle of it, wnating, having, no wait second thoughts, wanting, having...
also loved the line:
"Down to my gallows where I cut out your heart"
so emo...SO GOOD! :)


Much Love

Ashley

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I'm not going to lie twenty

I'm not going to lie twenty years of this shit deserves no less than a friken long poem! Imagine living with it ;) thanks for going the whole hog I really appreciate it, as for ripping out his heart he will never know mine was caught on his cuff, he will never notice and I will never tell, I will just pretend I can't see it and pretend half isn't missing ;)


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

running_with_rabbits's picture

:(

that is no way to live my dear
move on and love again
heal


Much Love

Ashley

SSmoothie's picture

It's all good just get caught

It's all good just get caught up in the memory of an old slipper I am in love with a heart that's true a eal blessing we've really come through he's the father of my children and I love him as much as my fine sons it's just hard when you realize with soulmates there's more than one and they like to hang around... But I am incredibly lucky to have caught the attentions of two rather fine men. Who try so hard to make my life better :) but it's not without it's torments and emo moments great huh? :)


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

running_with_rabbits's picture

and different soulmates fit

and different soulmates fit differently and sometimes you like a soulmate more than they like you

fuck this love shit lol its complicated, why do I love it so much? lol


Much Love

Ashley

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That is so true about

That is so true about different fits by the way totally agree!


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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Wow very enjoyable! I've

Wow very enjoyable! I've been out of the game on writing. I just got back from spain! Ive been reading some of your newer post while I was away! Awesome stuff!

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Thanks Fitzy, Any chance Any

Thanks Fitzy,

Any chance Any new stuff of your own up soon? Miss your kickass style! ;) well, get on with it, your public awaits! Cheers SS


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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very nice i thoroughly

very nice
i thoroughly enjoyed that piece
thank you for sharing

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Thank you Wes your comment is

Thank you Wes your comment is much appreciated :) I am happy you enjoyed this, I'll be sure to read your work is there a particular work you'd recommend? :) cheers SS


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

MrWes76's picture

Do i recommend any

Do i have any recommendations? hmmm
that question caught me off guard SS, lol
i like XYZ Insight- Reasons- Satori- Full of You parts 3 and 4- Kingdom Lost- Immortal- Tired Soul

i think you'll like those :)

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All them beautifly executed

All them beautifly executed thank you for such lovely pearls! Greatfully SS


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

MrWes76's picture

Thank you for taking the time

Thank you for taking the time to read them :)

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No thank you for the pleasure

No thank you for the pleasure I will be reading more ;)


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."