Mnemonic Pain

Every pattern is a cudgel for pain 

Every equation rings out your reign 

Its on the whispers and tirades of the wind

Its in the ripple of water and crashing waves of the sea

Each sinew tugged at and tortured 

Frayed nerves screeching and screaming 

Begging for the holy oil,

the balm of relief 

The anointing of peace 

Yet even that hope lies shattered 

in the broken pieces of usefulness  

distorted harmonics resonating agony 

where once was perfect and sound cohesion 

Each moment now a taught tension

Each movement a pugnacious trap for excrutiation 

Every device is a loaded trigger for wretched pangs all I want to to do is merely write

Of beauty and hope

What sabotage for a poet 

Whose pain enscription was a grateful muse 

I find nothing of comfort 

Because every idea breathes nothing but signals

heralding yet more and more pain 

Just like the photo of us dancing in the rain 

I feel like it might never happen again 

Memory is a Pain upon a pain 

Mnemonics are the seat of my suffering 

And your mighty reign of anguish 

An insanity that devours me 

But I will not succumb 

I will remain 

I will come through this somewhat sane

And you'll be that forgotten memory 

I refuse to let inside my brain 

The rent will be sky high 

And I WILL BE ME AGAIN!

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

CHRONIC REFERRED PAIN SYNDROME 

WILL FORGET MY NAME! 

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S74rw4rd's picture

That you can raise such a

That you can raise such a towering poem over the flat fault line of the pain you suffer is testimony both to the power of Poetry, in general, and your own power as a Poet, specifically, to remind us that pain will never have the last word.  This is one of the delusions that the "prince of the powers of the air" likes to send among us; but it is not the final word or the final condition.


Starward

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And so it is my friend if I

And so it is my friend if I didn't have Yeshua Christ and God to deliver me, and trust me this was a complete blessing and deliverance  during uncertain times, it happened at work and I only lost 1/4% of my income, I needed a break. Every time something big happens I get time to step back and breathe and learn something will be okay without me and others not. Its the balance between the two that we need to find. I was fearless in my conviction and God delivered me from an evil I was not willing to partake in it broke my heart to watch and then I didn't have to watch it any more, when 8 returned it had ended and I am building my strength to endure and sometimes functionality  everyday.  Thank you for you lovely comments friend. Happy lent, Best blessings to you and so it is.  


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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Thank you.  That is

Thank you.  That is an AWESOME testimony, and I am taking comfort from it in my own difficulties, even as I write these words.  This poem, and your comments upon it, are going to be of great help, going forward, to readers who come upon them, as I have been helped this very day.


Starward

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What seemed to be cruel

What seemed to be cruel "sabotage", you turned into gold:

 

"Frayed nerves screeching and screaming

Begging for the holy oil

the balm of relief

The anointing of peace"

 

You proved that great art doesn't have to be all fluff and sunshine, and that "beauty and hope" can emerge from the most tumultuous inner wrestling and outer challenges. In the last lines you land on your feet with eloquent determination and clever phrases spun into victory.

 

A striking showcase for your talent and resolve. 

 
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Thanks my precious and

Thanks my precious and talented  Patriciajj 

I am struggling to find beauty or tragedy because every last thing is interrupted by pain. Back at work part time can be exhausting after this kind if injury. I really look forward to your take on my stuff. I am never disappointed by your response or your amazing work. You are unique and can resonate on somany levels. Bless you hugss always ss 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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It's a joy and a privilege to

It's a joy and a privilege to comment on your amazing creations. Thank you for your support and inspiration.

 
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Okay, let me just say how

Okay, let me just say how much I love your writing and devour it up as if it were drugs the big brain got its own game, newsflash!


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Aww ditto! Thanks so much for

Aww ditto! Thanks so much for your support and encouragement. Best blessings ss x


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."