I'll Fly

It seems I can't get away from my inevitable destruction 

I've tried too many times to counterfit my emotions 

And I've searched like a blind man drowning 

I've put my best foot forward only to find myself running backward

I've laid my best intentions only to find the road to ruin paved with the best of them 

I've said a thousand and more times sorry

Only to end up having to say a thousand times more

I've dared to dream my dreams and grasped only thin air 

I've allowed myself to be used and abused time and time again

Like some twisted self flagellation

only to find my self unrepentant without even knowing it

I've hidden from the truth only to find it find me

I've doubled down and doubled myself over it 

I've built walls to dam up my failings only to find holes in it 

always one hole more than any fingers or toes I've got for it 

Troubles always seem to find me and worries never leave my mind 

I'm not afraid to cry 

And here I am still hopeful I've got one more time left  in me, and the will to try 

Who knows, one day I'll win the tittle and...

 

 

 

 

patriciajj's picture

I'm feeling this to center of

I'm feeling this to center of my being. The world certainly does trample what it doesn't understand, and too often it doesn't understand genuine kindness, unconditional generosity and sensitivity. It's OK to feel vulnerable and even hopeless sometimes. It's part of the deal.

 

There's comfort and beauty in your poignant honesty and unflinching, unapologetic emotion; the type that makes the reader feel they are not alone.  

 

And I'm intrigued, actually, very impressed, by your last line: how it floats, open-ended, with hope that decrees, strategically and cleverly, your title.

 

An achingly sad and relatable expression.

 

Just remember, dear poet, you are an artist and a blessing to so many!  

SSmoothie's picture

Oh you so get me. Its like

Oh you so get me. Its like everytime I read your works wishing I'd written them because they are so skilfully done and so relatable they pull strings in me I dont let anyone pull. I love that you see me I am always so grateful for your reads and always eager to read you in any post, work or comment all are so worthy if being read, felt analyised and appreciated 

Best blessingss great poet friend! 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

patriciajj's picture

You see me as well, and that

You see me as well, and that means everything. Thank you for being a beacon and an inspiration. Every blessing to you.