Dear Mother

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Dear Mother,

There's words I've always wanted to say

Questions I've always wanted to ask

But you weren't there to talk to

You weren't there to ask

When these thoughts weighed the most

They crushed my spirit

And they broke my soul

In your absence they killed me-

The little boy you lost

Or threw away.



Dear Mother,

I realized something today

I think I've hated you forever

It's left me cold and bitter

Wanting of what I want most

What you should have first given me

When you still had the chance

'Cuz now I'm grown and gone

From the world you were in

You've lost me forever

As I lost you.



Dear Mother,

Where, what, who, why

Can you tell me what I need to know

Can you heal these scars

That have plagued me all my life

Can you take away the pain

I lived through every day

Can you go back in time

And change everything

So all is well with me

And all is well with you?



Dear Mother,

In my dreams I've kissed you

And held you close to me

In arms that would never let go

Because I've loved you all my life

Even if you didn't love me

So I try to accept that fact

I try to let it go

And I try to not let it bother me

But can't you see Dear Mother

It's tortured me?



Dear Mother,

I've said goodbye to you

Even though I don't want to

I still dream of holding you

And wiping your tears away

But those are just dreams now

As this night turns into day

The sun is rising slowly

On the horizon, somewhere out there

Where I hope you're watching me

'Cuz Dear Mother

I still want you to know that I care.



July 1, 2002

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Words I only wish I could have said....

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David's picture

Beautiful...

Courtney Roy's picture

Hey,
I love this poem, it's so good. I love the depth and feeling that you put into it. I can relate to it too. Keep on writing all these great poems.
-Courtney

Amanda DeBisschop's picture

Hello,
I saw your comment on my site and decided to see some of your work. It's amazing, I love the depth in most of your poems. I could really relate to this one too. Thanks for keeping good writing alive! By the way you mentioned that you wrote stories...do you have a link for them? I'm interested in seeing them!
-Amanda