i'm deaf in one ear; don't give a fuck in the other!
your excuses are nothing but reasons to be smothered
i will not justify why i'm so annoyed
to walk the same Earth as YOU programmable 'droids
each day, i wake up to end this bad dream.
i cannot muddle through such urges to scream!
where too many morons drain the world of it's brilliance
so even the anomalies cant make a difference.
instead, we're choking on the truth's we seek----
made vividly aware that the future is bleak.
insufferable independence and fool-hearted drive
has focused my energy and kept me alive.
i could've gotten swept away in all this wretched mess;
another lost sheep, following along with all the rest...
but... i was born with my eyes open wide,
with chrystal-clear vision and a free-thinking mind,
and too many meticulous questions for everyone---
occasional theories, but answers for none.
acceptance falls absent where i don't belong.
refusal to conform means i MUST be wrong!
plugged ears can't listen to the rules of drones;
i'll find my way better if i walk alone.
there's much misdirection retelling lessons learned;
ANY knowledge gained HAS to be earned!
faith is blinding and laws bend and break:
(just like) perceptions evolve with every mistake.
so, spare me the sob story that life isn't fair.
as aformentioned: i'm unable, unwilling to care.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

this was written september 12, 2010, sunday, between 1:30 am and 6 am after my "then" boyfriends friend billy said the first line to me. "i'm deaf in one ear, don't give a fuck in the other. you can use that in one of your poems tonight, girl" and i did. it's a very complicated poem with alot of structure and large vocabulary, which often confuses the reader. but as i always say... the messages will be heard by those who are meant to hear them and will be lost entirely by those who fall to the wayside.
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