I Cannot

I cannot handle life anymore

I cannot find an open door

I cannot find love to embrace

I cannot fake a happy face

I cannot face another day

I cannot live another way

I cannot show my inner self

I cannot live upon this shelf

I cannot simply hide away

I cannot live with this dismay

All I want is to say good bye

Then go away and die

But you just don’t give a shit for me

I cannot go on as hard as I try

I want to die, I cannot lie

It hurts so bad I cannot sleep

I cannot wake, I cannot weep

I wish there was another way

I cannot face another day

Give me help, and let me win

I am a loser and I live in sin

My life is just a fucking mess

I am so not perfect I will confess

A million things I’ve done wrong

Another stupid, unhappy song

I have to write my feelings down

Because I can’t hold it all inside

I cannot run, I cannot hide

Reading this I am sure you think

I probably need to see a shrink

You’re probably right, because I do

But it would not help me or you

You cannot understand my pain

You cannot understand my gain

I cross my heart and hope to die

And hoping is no lie

Cuz I know what I have to do

I’ll tell you a story and I tell it true                            A story about a girl who died

A girl who failed, and lied

A girl who let her family down

In her tears she drown

She let all her dreams drift away

Messed her life up, I have to say

It is all her fault, she’s to blame

And now she is standing in the rain

There is no one she can embrace

They are seeing through her happy face

Inside she is full of hate

Someone must have cursed that date

The day she was born upon

How‘d they ever be so wrong

If her friend knew what would they think

She would probably have to see a shrink

So she’ll keep it all inside

She is the master of disguise

I hope this story you’ve enjoyed

It’s my life not a toy

I am sorry I fucked up so bad

I wish I wasn’t fucking sad


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