[after Constantine Cavafy's Poem, "Since Nine O'Clock," trans. Keeley and Sherrard]
Like a playful poem, remembered with glee, the
image of my adolescent body comes back to
engage my imagination: the frizzy hair
much longer than my parents had allowed; no
longer clumsy, awkward, or pipsqueak voiced; no
longer beset by the epithet, "Fairy Jerry," no
longer deemed ugly by peers and classmates,
especially the beautiful males for whom I felt
crushes or erotic desire to be naked with them;
all of them shoeless, barefoot or socksheathed;
all of them aware that I was soon to be called
Starwatcher, and that they were the stars that
constellated my soul's sky at that time of my life.
Prone and unclothed, the rhythm of my accelerating
pulse determined the cadence of their soft footsteps, as
they circled around me, their kisses and caresses
coming in profusion as they came to me---
without the inhibitions imposed by silly, societal rules;
coming to me like starlight pouring into the astronomer's
enlongated telescope, until they yielded to the
presence of BlueShift, himself, at last, exquisitely
naked and eager to lay with me.
Starward-Led