@ 27.055 MHz: Ad Astra; To Stephen, Whom, At College, I Called Swedening, And Whom I Failed Miserably [XLIX]

When you came out to me, most beautiful blonde

boy---always clad in supple trousers and sheer

socks; almost always shoeless---I was far too

fearful of local homophobes to revel

in your offered Love.



StarSpared

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I never knew him to wear jeans on campus.  His collection of sheer socks---over which he rarely wore shoes---taught me to appreciate such garments, as these poems well attest.  I should have loved him better and openly.  He has gone to Jesus; I hope to kiss him there when I arrive.

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There’s no doubt that he

There’s no doubt that he waits for you with nothing but understanding and unconditional love. And wearing sheer socks, of course. 

 

We have all made choices we’re not proud of, but this poem and many others offer purpose, courage and valuable art to others. Never underestimate that gift. God bless. 

 
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This comment means so much to

This comment means so much to me that, before I burst into tears, I have downloaded your words to my laptop.  Do you realize that you have put a great perspective on a secret sorrow I have carried over four decades.  If I can help one couple come together without regard to homophobia, perhaps he, in Heaven, will be pleased with me.  Giving me that to hang on to, and even work into my daily prayers when I can, is one of the greatest things you have ever done for me.  And for my Stephen, whom I should have loved better and openly.


Starward-Led [in Chrismation, Januarius]

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It's a privilege to be a part

It's a privilege to be a part of your fascinating journey and your crucial mission. You have made a difference and yes, God, the angels and your dear friend in Heaven, rejoice. 

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Thank you for reminding me of

Thank you for reminding me of core truths.


Starward-Led [in Chrismation, Januarius]