" Fraudulent Disguise "

I'm thinking of you while writing this

and would love to scratch out your eyes,

They haunt me, taunt me, beckon to me

in a fraudulent disguise,

In another life I have held you

inside me as I'm wrapped in your scent,

The taste of your lips gave a quickening

to a love already spent,

I've carressed your face with my fingertips

followed the shape and line of your jaw,

I have felt your hands upon my hips

as I reclined in wanton awe,

My black hair strays and tickles

upon your heaving chest,

I've licked your skin as we gently fell

upon a cloud to rest,

In my mind I have loved you

over and over again,

Yet it's someone else you lay beside

and I'm the one that you call *friend*,

But I have seen the reflective fire

in the cloaking of your eyes,

Honor, Respect, imprisons me

In a fraudulent disguise......

Author's Notes/Comments:

Sometimes I wish that I could be as shady as alot of women. No lines they won't cross to get a man, have a man. I feel that if you have to decieve or lie or manipulate to gain someones affection then the whole relationship that results is a lie. No matter how long you live it. Those type of relationships are based on *obsession* not love. Obsession is ALL about what you want, no matter who you hurt or what you have to do. To be obsessed is to lower yourself for purely selfish reasons. Love does not shame you or make you shame yourself. Love does not make you lie to others or to yourself. Obsession does. Love, is pure gold, obsession is fools gold. it can look like it, even feel like it but it's just you fooling yourself.