No Hope

Frozen in diamond crystals here

able to gaze out but not in

a one way mirror out to you

I try not to let the welling fear

compound and rebound and triple the sin

but you don't seem to see me too.

I'm sitting here screaming but it stops

hits the edge and bounds back

shatters me, nothing happens to my cage

My ears flood in pain and innerly hops

around my head making me go slack

Anger and frustration, I'm done with the rage

Murmurs now, rising to you

You finally notice that I'm here

but you don't seem to care when I shatter

you just seem to hiss and shoo

out of indifference and coldness sheer

I die with the the echoes of your laughter

Still trapped like people in Pompeii

ashes of me litter the floor of my glass coffin

If I'm lucky you'll shed a tear

and take me out of your personal display

I doubt, you ever the hard tyrant, that you'll soften

but hell, its worth a shot at fear

Been ages now of standing up

I've had the glory to see you suffer sambai no

Petty victory of spite and hurt

My glass has oozed around this bittertears cup

Glass bubble now, mummified in a dream, o

you didn't realize that your words burnt?

Passerbys see the coffin face screaming

enraged spirit of mine still wanting justice

Still wanting to be let out

I stopped up quiet and fell to dreaming

to you opening cold hell up to say "Chris,

I love you" How I'd make your ears ring with a shout

But I'm being spiteful again

so what else is new? You killed me

raped me of my dignity and closed me up alone

Would've have dropped me in bog or fen

but you wanted, sick one, to see

me rot down to the bone

Haha, in the end it got you,

Time took away your life

You got your pleasure though

And I got to see you twist to

nothing but an existance of strife

I realize I'm still trapped; sambai no

Author's Notes/Comments: 

More angst-land. Written around the time my ex started trying to worm his way back into my life. :D ca 11/2003

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