TOO FAR

Where do I start...

To hone again the talent close to deterioration,

To open-up the window of dawn unfolding,

So many dreams yet lots of trials,

But the heart's will still vivid and clear



Where do I start...

To assemble, to fix pieces of ideas

Years of indurance yet doesn't paid-off

Tough as it maybe mind has its way

To penetrate an endeavor and bring closer to reality



Where do I start...

To hold you back ..Oh!.. great memories

Memoirs of yesteryears trying to recapture

To warm-up again and set a whole new goal

In the midst of crisis to stand after fall



Where do I start...

To rekindle the spirit of unending quest

To rejuvenate the feather of fathoming dreams

Inspite hardship,hope will still float

Hope to bring labored fruit close to its root



Where do I start...

To reminisce things of great importance

To see myself surpass the long endurance

Why and how is the question of skills

Refined by fire a discipline becomes will



Where do I start...

In a battle of hope and vigilance

Beyond sacrifice and long suffering

To see myself wide awake in a misty cool night

Yet it is within me that will start to mobilize



Is is worth starting?...

With wings broken and dreams rotten

Countless of burden still fast approaching

When will I peek the twilight of hope

To refuel the engine of stucked inspiration



Too far to start.....

Yet too close to imagine

It is the sole you to grasp the real serene

Within you and inside out and......





A WHOLE REBORN YOU....

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Sometimes, life is too cruel, sometimes it's mind boggling..Reason/s why I took the risk of letting my emotional distress...One is, to release and breath-out loud.. Two, to escape the monotony of my life during those times..penning this poem is one great way to ease the unexplainable paranoia I was suffering then. It somehow helped me but not totally cured me..it's not that bec. I got some neuro prob..but I was just in my life's lowest point. Originally manuscripted last June 02, 2001. On the contrary, it was nice in the state of depression sometimes because it fuels us to think deeper, contemplate and meticulously plan the next step we must make..afraid of committing mistakes again..but then, it is a known fact that mistakes is inevitable sometimes..optimism will save us from falling into great depression and counting our blessings as well..Whoah..what a great relief..hehehe!

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