The Longing

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Love is Pain

Took pictures of myself in the mirror today trying to use my imagination to fill in the spaces where you would normally be standing...
You had such a commanding presence that the images failed to truly capture the emotions I felt when I was with you and as I dashed my camera to the ground in disgust it must have been the dust that brought the tears to my eyes...
I still refuse to accept that you are gone to my heart and so my eyes have known no tears since you parted...
Voices from those I know telling me that I should move on fall to deaf ears as my fears crowd the door to my inner emotions...
I want to cry to have closure but my heart won't let go and keeps telling my that it knows you are not gone forever...
"Never stop chasing your dreams" people say and somewhere along the way you will achieve if you just believe...
When I recieved your message last time online my heart skipped a beat, to know that you still had me in mind it felt like a sign of good times to come but they never did....
And even though in some dark side of my heart that feels rejected I want to be rid of you I can't because I still hold on to you so tightly that the memories we made keep me at a loss for the love that I feel is rightfully mine.

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Jennifer