Supressed

All the pain, has been forgotten.

Hidden, but not forbidden.

 

All of it has been put away.

But not really gone, I say.

 

All the tears, over the years.

 

I've put the pain and anger behind.

I've put it all aside.

 

But I still feel it.

I have tried to push it away,

to the deepest and darkest depths of myself.

 

But it keeps returning.

The pain is hurting.

And the anger is burning.

I'm yearning,

for it to stay away.

 

But it won't fade,

it won't go away.

 

I am losing my grip on everything.

 

How will I get rid of this anger and pain?

I'm left in dismay.

I just don't know what to say.

 

It has all remained.

 

The anger and pain is supressed.

It's all supressed.

 

I think it will stay with me

for always.

 

I am depressed.

I'm all depressed.

 

Oh, how I loathe that anger and pain!

I hope it won't stay.

 

I need help!

I want it to leave, with all of itself.

 

 

... Now I know it will stay with me, for always.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I love writing poetry. But, in the past I have changed a lot of my poems bfore posting them here. I cleaned them up, from things that I thought was just repulsive, which maybe it was, but I was scared to think what people would think of it. But now I'm looking towards the future. From this point forward, I'm just going to put the poems here without thinking of what anyone would think. Because I need to stay true to myself. There is nothing but the best to come of me. And there is nothing but the worst to come of me. This is me.

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It's good. I like it. (only I

It's good. I like it. (only I think it's 'suppressed', because 'repressed' is when your conscious mind has no awareness of it... because it's been buried in the subconscious).  Since your conscious mind is aware, I'm pretty sure it's 'supressed', not repressed. If we 'supress' something...it isn't because we 'can't' remember, it's because we 'push it aside' because we remember...but we don't want to talk about it. It's very different from 'repressed'.

 

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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

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Oh, thank you! I think I just

Oh, thank you! I think I just confused the two! I'd better change that!

nightlight1220's picture

That's ok, and better now...

That's ok, and better now... you did really good, and "I'm left in dismay.

I just don't know what to say.

 

 

and then when you said "I am depressed.

I'm all depressed.

 

Oh, how I loathe that anger and pain!

I hope it won't stay.

 

I need help!"

 

That was good...really expressed how one feels when they cannot muster the courage to just go ask for help.  It's great.


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

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Thank you!

Thank you so much!! That means so much to me!