Not This Time

Life is confusing

Evil and abusing

But the one thing that I have

I don't know how long it'll last



I accept this one thing

With arms wide open

The look in my eyes cant be seen

Because there now shut



Recently

I've learned things

Tried not to listen

But've heard things

That can't be ignored

They hurt deep inside

I hope they're not true

But life sometimes lies



This one thing

Is who I am

It makes me

The love received

Somehow shapes me

But is it shaping

Me to fit the plan

Of life and love

Or am I getting

Screwed over again



It's not going to happen

Not this time

I honestly hope

Life is forgiving

And I hope

You can see

The love I'm giving



This one thing

I care for a lot

Would give my life and the world

To ensure a life with this girl

A sweetheart she may be

But she really confuses me

Please God

Guide her back to me



I don't know

If it's persuasion by one

Or it's your true feelings

I hope what we've shared

Hasn't been a lie

But I don't know now

I still don't understand the "why"



I can overlook what's gone down

Forgive you, wipe the slate clean

I honestly understand

That your only a girl of sixteen

But when I'm near you

My life's better

Your the one thing I have

And one thing I don't plan to lose



So I ask that you be honest

And show me where I'm headed

Because nothing bad is going to happen

Not this time

My feelings for you are

Beyond what words can say

So I hope you can tell me

Why I feel this way



In closing, I pray

That I don't lose you

That you're here to stay

But only you know

How this'll work out

Please don't leave me alone

Leave me without

A hope at a future



So be your own person

Make up your own mind

Friendships are great

But leave the suggestions behind

And look ahead

To where your heart leads you

No one else



But one things for sure

I love you too damn much

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oh_so_odd's picture

i dont exactly know what this is supposed to mean, or how im supposed to respond, but darling....you're wonderful, and im sorry for anything i've said or done thats been offensive. hugs and kisses babe.