Broken and Glorious Life

 

Like summer, you were a 

green haze

between endings.

 

Like winter, you were

diamonds in 

the tomb.

 

I would take any one

of those dismantled 

memories now,

refurbish it 

and slip into it 

like life-changing 

knowledge, 

 

and this time I might

even remember to 

say I love you

although sometimes

I just loved

the idea of love, 

 

the feral madness of love . . . 

 

and perhaps that's 

Heaven enough for

earthbound explorers

tripping over each 

other in this 

marvelous, earthy 

stupor, 

 

and, well, any love 

seeping though the

pinholes of our

humanness is 

sanctified.

 

That green mist 

swells into focus

until the world 

lives again 

in chic robins, 

suspicious squirrels

and a pond, 

a new concoction,

groggy and black and 

rebrewed every hour. 

 

Folds of our sky

laze upon it.  

 

Indoors a part of you 

lives a weary, 

golden life

and another part

waits for me with

baffling patience. 

 

All you 

ever wanted were 

droplets of devotion 

because you realized

before I did:

everything's a shadow 

until it's shared. 

 

I could fall through 

this wind forever—

how it takes sweat

and damaged pride

with it as it pulls 

away from

my body.

 

It's a simple 

type of kindness

I can accept. Easily. 

I'll carry it 

back to my 

other life where

some things 

can be paused

with a remote control 

and some things 

can be put aside,

 

but not what 

truly matters.

 

In the softness of 

our fossilized quiet, 

the past a cathedral 

behind us, 

its spires chiseled 

bit by bit into 

pieces, 

crumbling or glorious 

depending 

on the day,

 

I listen 

to my true self

 

and reach for your hand. 

  

Patricia Joan Jones

 

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Wordman's picture

another beautifully crafted

another beautifully crafted piece, so in touch with the emotions that we have all felt. There are so many to relate to, but let me point out one that struck me deep, 

 " any love 

seeping though the

pinholes of our

humanness is 

sanctified" 

What an excellent way to describe our veiled fraility, and our need for acceptance. 

Along with applause, I enclose a nodding smile of understanding. 

patriciajj's picture

There are few comments more

There are few comments more gratifying than being assured that one's work is relatable. Your understanding and appreciation is always a huge honor. Thank you, luminous Poet, for taking me to a higher place on this difficult day. Brightest blessings.

 
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I have been reading Poetry

I have been reading Poetry for fifty years as of this past April.  I have been privileged to spend time with some of the greatest combinations of words by the greatest combiners:  Vergil, John Milton, Wallace Stevens. T. S. Eliot; and, since early 2020, Patriciajj.  I have said, repeatedly, that the posting of one of Patricia's poems is an event; the way the appearance of a new star on the face of the sky is an event.

    In the decades I have been reading, I have developed an appreciation for poems that depict a process; like when Vergil describes the making of Aeneas' shield, designed by Vulcan and forged in the Cyclopean furnaces; or, to cite a modern example, the way the Universe slowly disintigrates in Wallace Stevens' poem, "Chaos In Motion And Not In Motion."

    This poem that Patricia has just posted is a process poem, and the process it depicts is not just a key to its own meaning, but an example of how her entire collection works.  She begins by showing us two of the primary functions of Poetry as it has come to be understood in the West:  the application of metaphor and simile (in this poem, she begins with siimiles) to show us the unity of existence; and the refurbishing of dismantled memories---so that the memories refurbished by the Poet become what she calls, and what is, a life changing knowledge that proceeds to its ultimate purpose---the declaration of Love.  I will cite just one precedent for this, although I suppose that examples abound:  Eliot's words, in the first section of The Waste Land, tell us that the mix of memory and desire stirs dull roots with spring rain.  This happens even in what Eliot, in that poem, calls the Dead Land; and in what, near the end of this poem, Patricia characterizes as a vast cathedral, crumbling or glorious---depending on one's perspective  This is a paradox---another process which Poetry reveals to us, because we are creatures of both paradox and contradiction:  we praise the day's bright sunlight and then cover our eyes and squint, and we scare ourselves with ghost stories at night, and then, when we can't sleep, we stay up and begin to recognize constellations.  Even the most important event in History seems, to us, to be a paradox:  the brutally battered and mutilated body of a carpenter, nailed by spikes of Roman iron to two beams of local wood, is also the God Who not only designed and constructed the entire Cosmos, but was also revealed to us as Love---Love (not hatred, not self-righteousness, not conformity) as the God of Life and Salvation.  

    Ordinary prose, which, for so many of us, passes for attempted poetry when it is stacked (like piles of manure) in vertical arrays, cannot delineate the paradox:  the wishful thinking of the wannabe is never fulfilled in the achieved art of the real Poet, when that Poet has been revealed among us.  Then that Poet begins to tell us what the processes of this existence our, and what are the paradoxes inherent in those processes:  whether that Poet is living on a farm in Mantua and describes ordinary shepherds hering their sheep and falling in love; or a lawyerly insurance executive, between meetings or conferences, sitting at his desk and contemplating the paradoxical relationship between the imagination and reality.  

     I have tried, during the last three years, to offer interpretations on Patricia's poems as they appear; so that, when I look back, I think I have put together several suggestions of how to interpret her work, and how her poetic artistry and skill actually operate.  But I also believe that, someday, there will be a much larger proliferation of commentary on her poems.  I still believe that what we are privileged to watch, here at PostPoems, is the steady accumulation of one of the greatest poetic structures of our time.  Sure, someone will doubt this assertion; will dismiss it as too expansive; and I will point to those same persons certain published essays, from the roaring twenties, that dismissed The Waste Land as tripe, and declared that Wallace Stevens' poems were merely verbal stunts written for their shock value.  But who now really remembers those essays except as laughing stocks in the shadow of the verbal grandeur that those two Poets created simultaneously in one of the most verbally elegant periods of time in human history.  

      During my undergrad years, the courses in literature that I attended operated from a sort of united purpose:  not to establish a single reading of whatever poem, or novel, or tale we were reading, but to place that item within the context of a literary canon.  This was one of the influences that Old Possum, the great Eliot, brought to Literature:  that it did not happen as individual outbursts with blinkers on, but occurred as part of a Canon---so that one may trace a lineage (or, if you like, a literary DNA) from Vergil, to Dante, to Eliot and Stevens, and to Patriciajj.  While we readers (especially those who are scholars) do this, the Poet's perform a similar tracing:  they trace the processes that are the basic functions of the Universe as Christ, Who is Love, designed it.

     They tell me that Einstein, in his theoretical researches, determined that the Cosmos consisted of four basic forces or processes, and that he proposed (although he never discovered) a mathematical statement that would account for those processes simultaneously.  This, on the poetic level, is what Vergil did---and the forces he located were shepherding, farming, and the destruction and construction of cities.  This, on that same poetic level, is what Patricia's Poetry does; in each of her poems (sometimes it is centrally displayed, sometimes more subtle in its presentation; but always utterly and ecactly consistent), and, with great awe and admiration, we see that same demonstration in this triumphant poem.


Starward

patriciajj's picture

No one can read a poem the

No one can read a poem the way you do. You understand and appreciate all the nuances, strategies, intricacies (and simplicity) of thought involved in this artform's construction, and therefore to receive an insightful analysis by The Word Connoisseur and Great Literary Explorer is a thrill and an honor.

 

Endless thanks for breaking down my process, for expressing appreciation so eloquently and for blessing me with enough encouragement to keep me going for years to come.

 

You're the best! 

 
SilverDawn's picture

Such a clear picture painted

Such a clear picture painted here, love and life as seen with eyes that see truly without adding where there is no need to add.


Candace / Silver Dawn

 

patriciajj's picture

That was the effect I was

That was the effect I was going for. Thank you for recognizing that and for taking the time to read my work with such perception and appreciation. Means so much.