SOMETHING ELSE ENTIRELY

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JOURNAL # 41

you walked me to the edge of love once
but that was so long ago
I still smile as I remember those moments
you are not that man though anymore
but a more modern, distant version of him
surprisingly enough
that actually makes me almost euphoric for you
as I discover the peace you feel dwelling
so contentedly within yourself
a part of you I know will always love me
but that part of old
the one so desperate to have me near
no longer needs that physical bond
but has evolved into a man who can
take any dire circumstance
so long as he is one with God
that is the beauty of your spirit
overtaking the manly heart and form
I once surrendered my every thought to
so very dearly
we are a fairy tale
that never got to know our happily ever after
and though we neither speak of it
that great sigh of ah but what if
ever trips around the edges of our lips
you are a flesh and blood revelation
a man I will always love but can likely never
truly have
for your path and your supreme purpose
undeniably now belong solely to God
and I was a lovely stop over you stumbled
upon
when you thought your life held for you
'Something Else Entirely'
now fret not my old and daring dear
we are love itself that cannot by which
be compared
it's just not the kind of love we originally
thought it would end up being
it's more, it's pure, it's ours
but it's as it ever was
it's incommunicable .......................
(Sept 9, 2012 933am)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Written during and right after a unique conversation with a man who once meant so much to me. Not that he means less to me now, it's just different and I'm okay with that. Not every fairy tale has a happy ending some tales just end and though he and I will never end, not truly we have evolved in our own ways into two people who likely do not relate to each other in the same way they once had. I am accepting of all the changes and I am at peace with what I am realizing is a different path for both of us. My crisp, clear sudden realizations though startling are not so shocking to me. It came like a gradual evolution, a very sweet and simplification of feelings that once seemed so big and complex. I am thankful for this conversation he and I had today. Life we both have learned is not so scary living it alone not as long as one has God in their life. We both came to this same conclusion taking very different paths.Amazing............... The Lord indeed does work in mysterious ways...............

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