A SADDLED MUSE

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JOURNAL # 41

'A Saddled Muse'
seeps into my mind
I've been a shoddy substitute
I realized just in time
a stand in friend
I cannot be
even though he and I
are not the romancing types
still his cavalier attitude
towards me
thoroughly irks
is vaguely reminiscent
of long gone school days
when I counselled
popular boys on the phone
about their chaotic love lives
whenever she is around
he can't be bothered
but should she be out of reach
he slinks immediately to me
this reeks of favoritism
to the highest shallow degree
and I am a bird of fairness
not a fan of users
who allow their attraction
to cancel out prior favored friendships
held in what I thought
was such high esteem
I am at a recycling point
I must decide
do I wish to be subverted friend
or simply set him free
to find another candidate
to take my place
leaving me to exit this mess
he calls his life....................
(Sept. 11, 2011 121pm)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

gave up a friend on line cause after several months of wonderful chats about life, family education, music, broken loves and dreams. He suddenly can't be bothered when I pm him cause he is chatting with some child. Should the child not be on line he runs to me that annoys me. Reminds me of male friends in high school and female friends in my early 20's who get a boyfriend and forget the friendship. I always worked so hard to retain my friendships and not let any new boyfriend pollute those relationships or make the friends feel like I'd forgotten them. Some never learn or merely just don't care think of only themselves in those moments and those are the ones who end up alone. This poem helped work out the issues that were bothering me yesterday before I fell asleep.

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