LIVING WITH ANTICIPATION

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JOURNAL #36

what is
the going rate
of
what's mine?
I have your heart
I've commandeered
your nearly every thought
you languish in the very
trenches of my deepest
reservoir of love for you
what more could be
on the line
we wrestle with each our
very own confusing depth
counteracting our fears
with the very strength of
hope
its the beauty of our brokenness
we struggle to
understand
I see so many aspects of me in you
good and bad
is it the mirror like image
then
that I'm finding myself attracted to
I like to think I'm drawn to your strengths
but feel familiar with your weaknesses
as I possess those too
they call to me like home
in the deepest recesses of your very
being
do you think for you its the same too
I crave you
like no other
is like
my energy force is weak without yours
traversing the earth with mine
I'm still me
but so much more
yet struggling and flailing
in my purposeful intent
to align this life I've been given
to better fit
along side yours
its as if
I'm fighting for
my life
with all that I have in me
to get me to where I know
I should be
on that path
that will
finally
fully
collide
my energy force
head on
with yours
there is no other path
viable
for my general state
of well being
surely you must know
you alone
own my very next breath
meaning
until there was you
I was
'Living With Anticipation'....................
(March 8, 2010 717am)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

again.........written better than a year ago for someone I was protecting but now time has pretty much insulated him and so I can post these poems without worry or censure...........

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