FROM LOVE'S TRENCHES

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JOURNAL #36

'From Love's Trenches'
these words I attempt to
pen
he scratches then he woos
or maybe I just misconstrue
the will behind his sin
I valiantly rise in myself
repeatedly
attempting to better understand
for just as Tammy Wynette sings
after all he's just a man
but I ache from his regular gaff
he can come off as so beautiful
to me
but then be so rigid
and at my pain mock or laugh
I've lost count of how many times
I've been accused as being silly
why should I be surprised
we love with damaged hearts
we are guided by ego based minds
products of our environment
certainly that we are,
and so we pollute
the soil we must trod upon
through the marked paths
of earth's time
making messes of
beautiful moments
by being ourselves
without really thinking
how our actions could be
taken by another
when viewed in a vague
misdirected light
communication
is a temple between lovers
that should always be kept
open
and free of useless debris
he adores my unconditional
love and admiration for him
yet showers
whether with old entries
or new creations repeatedly upon
a yet named other
my heart bleeds to know
just why this has to be thus so
me constantly left flailing
feeling so stupid
yet again
and crying like a very foolish
woman over him...............
(March 11,2010 435am)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

again.... written better than a year ago for someone I was trying to protect but now time has pretty much insulated him and so I can post these poems without worry or censure............

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