with a harsh clap of consciousness I wake from the fall
forgetting everything yet missing nothing at all
seeing through the dark only to blinded again by the
light
scraping by on just my collective wit
knowing a lot can go wrong when one becomes too bright
I carry on conversations with myself with the greatest
of ease
my disappointment in love's squandered tandem
I do my best to appease
life so quickly doesn't seem as funny as in its
hey days of old
I'm much more cautious these days and a lot less
forward and gregariously bold
I still do mostly what I want but more so now what
I'm told
this action commandeers my once free spirit
turning it in to cold
vague recognition to what has recently conspired
twitches at the burning senses
creativity comes around slowly and flashes
forgiveness in rare and even mended instances
some see my dilemma as a question of am not more so
than am
what I propose is salvation like self honesty
with no delusions nor scam
these are truly tested times I admit
though there are times when I don't know if what I'm
delving into is right or wrong
but with each passing day an end to this madness
I do so lovingly long
every emotion felt has a final resting place in some yet
to be written haunted song
some of us would just like to be lucky enough to be
allowed to sing along......................
( written March 16,1992 pm)