A TRADE ON DESIRE

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JOURNAL #6

you were always more superior than sweet

with a disposition of vagueness that my soft

temperament couldn't quite defeat

so, I stand now before you asking for no fortune

nor favor

but just a simple second of waiting

so this moment of martyred misery I can lovingly

embrace so to savor

right now I don't have on my person that definite

yet indescribable it

and I feel one should never endeavor to make a start

of anything if one does not also know how to quit

since this is as good of an open opportunity as I am

ever likely to get

I'll air out my list of grievances before my loose

lips get themselves bit

maybe I have no real grounds to throw such an

unhealthy fit

but every time I try to stand in my defense

you over crowd my immediate space until I'm forced

down again to sit

since I pushed the issue and made our relationship 'nil

I'll draw up the inner courage to let you make of

this what you will

now without any further ifs, and, buts or why's

know that you'll never have to suffer my unwanted

company again after we've said our full and final

goodbyes...............................

(written March 13,1992 am)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

a bad but quirky break up.
Funny thing is, I don't even recall the fellow's face anymore let alone his name.

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